My First Post
Well, I've finally succumbed to peer-pressure and started my very own LiveJournal. I guess the cause of all this is due to me feeling so emo that past few days. In one word it could all be summed up as "vacio". Completely empty. I just feel like I have nothing to do, nothing to live for, like I haven't accomplished anything and my life doesn't have direction. I've just been moping around all day kind of depressed looking to people to keep me entertained.
Luckily I had Sarah today. The girl is crazy (but in a good way :) We went out to Oxley's earlier on today for lunch and we just had a good conversation and she made me laugh relentlessly (gotta love her "boyfriend," you know that one that beats her ahhaha) She actually cheered me up. But for some reason good friends aren't completely doing the trick.
I broke up with my boyfriend (my second one ever so far) about two weeks ago. NO it wasn't a bad thing. It was completely my decision, but I can help but to feel lonely recently. I mean I broke up with him because I was feeling crowded and I never had a break between him and my first bf so I just wanted the space so how can I feel completely lonely after two weeks!
I'm a guy. What’s sad in this whole deal is that I don't want sex at all. I just want romance. Is that really so much to ask for? . . I kinda just want to take it slow and steady with someone, hold hands, watch a movie, cuddle?. But unfortunately it just feels that in this gay culture *sex* is really the only thing that matters, and that I'm just not going to find this guy. I guess I'm just looking for love. If you were to go back into time even a few months and were to tell me that I would be saying this shit I would probably laugh in your face. But now I'm just alone. I feel is as if no one cares about me even if there are people that I know do. Its quite sad.
And I enter my emo week..
Luckily I had Sarah today. The girl is crazy (but in a good way :) We went out to Oxley's earlier on today for lunch and we just had a good conversation and she made me laugh relentlessly (gotta love her "boyfriend," you know that one that beats her ahhaha) She actually cheered me up. But for some reason good friends aren't completely doing the trick.
I broke up with my boyfriend (my second one ever so far) about two weeks ago. NO it wasn't a bad thing. It was completely my decision, but I can help but to feel lonely recently. I mean I broke up with him because I was feeling crowded and I never had a break between him and my first bf so I just wanted the space so how can I feel completely lonely after two weeks!
I'm a guy. What’s sad in this whole deal is that I don't want sex at all. I just want romance. Is that really so much to ask for? . . I kinda just want to take it slow and steady with someone, hold hands, watch a movie, cuddle?. But unfortunately it just feels that in this gay culture *sex* is really the only thing that matters, and that I'm just not going to find this guy. I guess I'm just looking for love. If you were to go back into time even a few months and were to tell me that I would be saying this shit I would probably laugh in your face. But now I'm just alone. I feel is as if no one cares about me even if there are people that I know do. Its quite sad.
And I enter my emo week..