holding on by a thread...
why does life have this funny little way of making me seem like the bad guy?
i mean...
i sat in a hospital waiting room for 5 hours in the middle of the night for you after everything you have done to me. i hadnt slept in 30 hours. i stole my moms car in the wee hours of the morning because i couldnt handle not seeing your face while i spoke. ive been here all along... and oddly enough i love you sooo much that i will still be here. i have had so many reasons and so many things to push me to walk away from you.
but i have had so many experiences and moments with you that i stay. i love you more than i could ever love anything else. you are my world. everyday is usually spent with you, just sitting around, but that didnt bother me. it was always fun. you are who i want to be with. you are who, when it counts most, makes me feel like im on top of the world with the person i love.
and yet, i seem like the bad guy because i sent a message to a girl you planned on meeting up with in a different city? another blow to me... what was i supposed to do? sit around and just over look the fact that you made it seem like you were planning on cheating on me while you go on vacation with your family? i got scared. in my eyes there was some justication.
but if this it what makes us or breaks us? than how strong were we to begin with? if the problem that finally makes it too much to handle consists of a message.
ive been cheated on, lied to, and fucked with.
ive felt worthless, lower than shit, not important, not pretty enough, and not good enough.
so much has been done to me in this relationship, and im still here. people might look down on me for not being strong enough to pull away. im walked all over by you and every girl who has proven to be better than me, because i always seem to make peace with them and say that everything is ok. but its hard. its so amazingly hard.
i have been crushed again and again, and in return, i know you have too. but i love you all the same.
and i am willing to work as hard as i can to make this work. but you have to do the same. unless you dont agree. uless this is what you no longer want. just know, that i love you, and will always love you, because of every memory you have given me, all the experiences you have shown me... everything. you will always be my soul mate. whether we still fit together as puzzle pieces or not. i will always love you.
i mean...
i sat in a hospital waiting room for 5 hours in the middle of the night for you after everything you have done to me. i hadnt slept in 30 hours. i stole my moms car in the wee hours of the morning because i couldnt handle not seeing your face while i spoke. ive been here all along... and oddly enough i love you sooo much that i will still be here. i have had so many reasons and so many things to push me to walk away from you.
but i have had so many experiences and moments with you that i stay. i love you more than i could ever love anything else. you are my world. everyday is usually spent with you, just sitting around, but that didnt bother me. it was always fun. you are who i want to be with. you are who, when it counts most, makes me feel like im on top of the world with the person i love.
and yet, i seem like the bad guy because i sent a message to a girl you planned on meeting up with in a different city? another blow to me... what was i supposed to do? sit around and just over look the fact that you made it seem like you were planning on cheating on me while you go on vacation with your family? i got scared. in my eyes there was some justication.
but if this it what makes us or breaks us? than how strong were we to begin with? if the problem that finally makes it too much to handle consists of a message.
ive been cheated on, lied to, and fucked with.
ive felt worthless, lower than shit, not important, not pretty enough, and not good enough.
so much has been done to me in this relationship, and im still here. people might look down on me for not being strong enough to pull away. im walked all over by you and every girl who has proven to be better than me, because i always seem to make peace with them and say that everything is ok. but its hard. its so amazingly hard.
i have been crushed again and again, and in return, i know you have too. but i love you all the same.
and i am willing to work as hard as i can to make this work. but you have to do the same. unless you dont agree. uless this is what you no longer want. just know, that i love you, and will always love you, because of every memory you have given me, all the experiences you have shown me... everything. you will always be my soul mate. whether we still fit together as puzzle pieces or not. i will always love you.