sometimes....
I feel like im in this place right now, this state of mind that is so far from anything and anyone that i dont even understand it. I want it to be thanksgiving right now, I want all my cousins around me, my aunts my uncles and for all of us to be sitting around talking about everything. Im going to see my cousin in maine tomorrow and im realy excited about it. were gonna go to a movie and dinner and i get to express myself completely with everything thats been bothering me the past month or so. shes good at understanding, but shes a lot more bold than i am. i miss my mom a lot i really want to hug her and when i get home im gonna do that. im gonna let chestnut sleep on my bed too ahaha. i feel non-existant right now. i need to lose some weight.. i feel like i did when i was in eighth grade with the exeption of me getting along with my brother and his friends.. thats a good feeling. I miss life right now.