...same old
well I found out yesterday that my fears of katie backing off were actually true...I don't know, I think her exact phrasing was, I do like you too, but not in the sort of way I want to take things to the next level...I am getting sick of hearing that, I have heard that twice since I have been home, so twice over the span of 3 months, now that shit is fucked up. it really is...
I have to admit with this girl I really tried not to make it enter the friend zone, I hit on her whenever possible, or at least tried too. but to no avail. either way it seems that this has been another wasted effort...I am starting to hate the single life, I rushed into getting my apartment simply because I wanted a place to take girls. Sure I am happy with the place, I wouldn't want to live somewhere else, so I don't have any regrets, but it would be nice to share my apartment with that special person
In saying all this, last night I told cole and jeff this, and well cole immediately went on my POF changed it from edmonton to here, and started talking with some ladies...one of which he got on MSN, and was talking to for quite some time...I don't know why I am so anti that site, but I am...I may just be an idiot in thinking this, but I really want to meet the girl I date in person...it almost seems like you are forcing the matter with online sites like this...Now this completely screws me having this mindset, for if I don't start the online thing I will no doubt be alone for quite some time simply because I don't have the balls to step up in a sober environment...I hate to say this, I think I actually have to get myself to a point where I have a meaningless relationship with someone, I need something like that to get my confidence up and that could do it. at the end of the day I am still looking for that one special girl...
So it will be interesting to see how the next couple days go, like I said before I met katie, I wasn't really in a position to even think about getting into a relationship, I met her when I seemed to be happy, but what happens now? I got rejected yet again, and feel as though I did put my best foot forward...hopefully I can bounce back and see this just as a speed bump but we shall see...
I have to admit with this girl I really tried not to make it enter the friend zone, I hit on her whenever possible, or at least tried too. but to no avail. either way it seems that this has been another wasted effort...I am starting to hate the single life, I rushed into getting my apartment simply because I wanted a place to take girls. Sure I am happy with the place, I wouldn't want to live somewhere else, so I don't have any regrets, but it would be nice to share my apartment with that special person
In saying all this, last night I told cole and jeff this, and well cole immediately went on my POF changed it from edmonton to here, and started talking with some ladies...one of which he got on MSN, and was talking to for quite some time...I don't know why I am so anti that site, but I am...I may just be an idiot in thinking this, but I really want to meet the girl I date in person...it almost seems like you are forcing the matter with online sites like this...Now this completely screws me having this mindset, for if I don't start the online thing I will no doubt be alone for quite some time simply because I don't have the balls to step up in a sober environment...I hate to say this, I think I actually have to get myself to a point where I have a meaningless relationship with someone, I need something like that to get my confidence up and that could do it. at the end of the day I am still looking for that one special girl...
So it will be interesting to see how the next couple days go, like I said before I met katie, I wasn't really in a position to even think about getting into a relationship, I met her when I seemed to be happy, but what happens now? I got rejected yet again, and feel as though I did put my best foot forward...hopefully I can bounce back and see this just as a speed bump but we shall see...