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all the pretty photographs won't make it go away.
something new doesn't make it stop.
falling in love hasn't made it stop.
nothing is helping.
i'm not sure what to do.
i'm tired of feeling like this but it never stops.
the house will never be clean. my clothes will always be in piles. the floor will always need vacuuming. they will never fucking listen. the dishes will stay dirty. my brother will stay sick. my parents will stay sad. i can't take myself out of myself. i am going to finish this. i am going to make it stop. i will make it stop. i can make this go away it will be so easy. i am just trying to get back to nothingness before you pushed your way inside of me, before the mass pushed it's way inside his brain, before the sad pushed it's way into my parent's tear ducts. i don't want to make it out of this alive. it is not going to be okay. why won't you listen to me. i don't know what it means anymore.
i thought falling in love would make this go away.
i thought you could make it better and you haven't and it hurts and i hurt and it won't stop and i'm tired of being in pain. it's never going to be over unless i finish this. i am just not. some people just can't. i told you. why am i telling you again, i've already explained myself. i shouldn't have to explain myself. i need help.
something new doesn't make it stop.
falling in love hasn't made it stop.
nothing is helping.
i'm not sure what to do.
i'm tired of feeling like this but it never stops.
the house will never be clean. my clothes will always be in piles. the floor will always need vacuuming. they will never fucking listen. the dishes will stay dirty. my brother will stay sick. my parents will stay sad. i can't take myself out of myself. i am going to finish this. i am going to make it stop. i will make it stop. i can make this go away it will be so easy. i am just trying to get back to nothingness before you pushed your way inside of me, before the mass pushed it's way inside his brain, before the sad pushed it's way into my parent's tear ducts. i don't want to make it out of this alive. it is not going to be okay. why won't you listen to me. i don't know what it means anymore.
i thought falling in love would make this go away.
i thought you could make it better and you haven't and it hurts and i hurt and it won't stop and i'm tired of being in pain. it's never going to be over unless i finish this. i am just not. some people just can't. i told you. why am i telling you again, i've already explained myself. i shouldn't have to explain myself. i need help.