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you know, i just don't think i'm plymouth state material. i'm not willing to be a well rounded student and engage in extracurriculars like drinking and partying and being generally superficial. i'm not willing to change who i am to fit in, and i feel like i have to do that here. my classes are suck. people in general just annoy me, because no one cares. no one gives a damn about their education. all they ever fucking do is get drunk. classes in the morning have barely any students in them, because they're all hungover and stumbling back to their dorms from russell street. i don't want to be in a place like this. and its so frustrating. because i love some of the people here. and its really nice having bill here. and i love my job and i don't want to give it up, because its something that i worked hard for on my own. but i don't know. i don't know if the pros out weigh the cons. because i am getting really sick of this place. i just don't like it. and i don't know what to do. because i want to leave, but i'm too afraid. and i want to stay, but i'm not really happy. maybe next semester will be better.