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sometimes i feel like i'm out of the loop in college. i hang out w/ bill and shaun and heff and laura. erynn hangs out w/ jill, this girl down the hall, and i'd love to hang out w/ them too, but i feel like the third wheel. i need to find a girl to hang out with. i love bill and all, but i need a girl to talk to.
today bill was like "i feel guilty that shaun can just walk in whenever, and he's my best friend" and i was like "why do you feel guilty?" and he was like "because, he's here and you don't have nikki or anyone to just hang out with all the time."
its true. it was just weird to hear it from him. i mean, i know i don't have any real new friends here, but i wasn't expecting him to say it. he doesn't have any new people that he really hangs out w/ either. it kinda sucks. poets and writers isn't exactly a place to meet people. the writer's meetings i went to, no one there talks outside that group it seems like. i just feel like i should be meeting new people and not just being with the same people from high school. sometimes i feel like i should have maybe gone somewhere else, where there wasn't a bunch of people i know. i want to meet new people.
whatever. i'm just missing having someone to talk to all the time that is not a boy who i love. i mean, love is nice, but its not a girl friend. its just not the same.
blah. i just want a friend.
today bill was like "i feel guilty that shaun can just walk in whenever, and he's my best friend" and i was like "why do you feel guilty?" and he was like "because, he's here and you don't have nikki or anyone to just hang out with all the time."
its true. it was just weird to hear it from him. i mean, i know i don't have any real new friends here, but i wasn't expecting him to say it. he doesn't have any new people that he really hangs out w/ either. it kinda sucks. poets and writers isn't exactly a place to meet people. the writer's meetings i went to, no one there talks outside that group it seems like. i just feel like i should be meeting new people and not just being with the same people from high school. sometimes i feel like i should have maybe gone somewhere else, where there wasn't a bunch of people i know. i want to meet new people.
whatever. i'm just missing having someone to talk to all the time that is not a boy who i love. i mean, love is nice, but its not a girl friend. its just not the same.
blah. i just want a friend.