They aren't just dropping bombs in Baghdad

[justprogit]

The only solace I gain is from watching the coverage on the conflicts in the Middle East. Just when I’m about to run to the pantry and drown my self in Absolute, I turn on CNN and find comfort that my problems are trivial compared to what is goin on in Baghdad, Beirut, and Iraq. At least I didn’t die when my bomb dropped. Has it escalated so severely to the point of WWIII? Are my kids going to be studying this in their world history classes? Since when did everything become so catastrophic? Maybe I’m still young and naïve? “Major regional conflict” “Civil Unsettlement” Bombs. Attacks. Death. Doesn’t that indicate war? I watch all this stuff, and read all this stuff, and can't help but feel compelled to do something. I wonder if I will ever get the actual courage to try.

Back in woodland hills…my mom just announced that she’s been dating my Uncle Mike. This isn’t Kentucky…they aren’t blood related…but STILL. He’s basically my uncle. I’ve known him my entire life. Mom going out on dates, happy hours, coming home later than me…gross! But at the same time, she looks good, she’s excited, she’s always in a good mood, she’s having fun. That’s good. I should be happy for her. Right? It’s been over twelve years since my parents divorced. And my dad put her through a lot of shit. She deserves to be happy. Right? They how come I still think its gross. I’m shell shocked.

Then there's my boyfriend Aaron. I miss him. I wonder if he really loves me.