No cigarettes, and no problems with it.
Nora... I didn't think it was possible, I really didn't. Not that I thought you were lying, I just didn't know. But now I do.
How can someone be in love with two people at once? How can I be in love with two people at once? I didn't think I could love one.
Two very, VERY different people.
One is like... different. He gets jealous. He can be really sweet and nice, and we can also play around. Lots of weird playing. He's got a temper sometimes, or he can. But he took me for granted. Hmm... I can still love him and do nothing about it and I might be planning to do just that. I don't know though. I could let my once broken heart heal and then fuck it up once again. But can I really let myself do that? Or can I really deprive myself of what I really want?
The other one... He never gets jealous and he believes in no sex til thatthingimsoneverdoing. He's really, REALLY sweet and overly nice all the time. He's a real gentleman. He treats me like I'm worth everything to him. He's always loved me like that and he's never treated me otherwise. He wants our relationship to be how it was. We kiss, we play... and when I get back to California he wants me to be dating other people... even though he knows how much I'm gonna miss him. It's not like he's gonna go after other girls either because he's made it clear which one he wants.
The problem is... I love both of them so much... I shouldn't... But I do.
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So anyway. I'm in Oregon. Things are really going great, but I also want to be at home. I miss California and all of my friends. Yes, I MISS YOU. Punkards. Anyway. It's nice weather here. I like Sean. He cracks me up. First day Sean and
I didn't get to finish that because Sean came upstairs with a mask on and I screamed bloody murder. And then he like... tackled me. It was funny.
Sean and I on the first day went with his youth group buddies and played Capture the Flag for like FOUR HOURS. Personally, I think it would have been better if I was in California and I had fast runners on my team. Hahaha. I know who I'd pick, too.
Second day we went to the pool, I think, and goofed off. It was totally great.
Third day... which was yesterday... what did I do? Oh. We went off to a river thing, A COLD ONE, and a lake and goofed off, it was really great.... :)
Today... We're going to a concert. mewithoutyou at Club Meow Meow. This cracks me up. I love Oregon...except for the bugs.
Btw, VINCE. I hope you read this. Project 86. Look 'em up. It's a rock group. You'd like it. Really. And... trust me.
NO CIGARETTES FOR GEN!
She hasn't even had one...