Disconnect
I wish I didn't throw up so much. There is a major disconnect between my brain and my stomach. I throw up more now that I think I did the whole first year out of surgery.
What happened, what's the difference?
As I feel more "normal" I want to eat "normal" again, and I never will be able to that. Also, as time passes the stomach naturally stretches out some, so I can now eat more than I could to being with. This is cool because I can enjoy more of things, but so not cool because it scares me to think that I'm going to keep pushing it - as I am every day now, and re-stretch out my stomach.
I go to dinner and halfway through the meal I have to go throw up because I've eaten too much. I want the food, but I'm so sick of throwing up!!!
There's the disconnect in my brain. I am not normal. I don't have a normal stomach, and I've got to get used to that idea. I'm so thankful so the boyfriend and friends that put up with it all the time. I appreciate it! I'm just going to take it one day at a time, and be happy when I can get through a meal without throwing up!!
What happened, what's the difference?
As I feel more "normal" I want to eat "normal" again, and I never will be able to that. Also, as time passes the stomach naturally stretches out some, so I can now eat more than I could to being with. This is cool because I can enjoy more of things, but so not cool because it scares me to think that I'm going to keep pushing it - as I am every day now, and re-stretch out my stomach.
I go to dinner and halfway through the meal I have to go throw up because I've eaten too much. I want the food, but I'm so sick of throwing up!!!
There's the disconnect in my brain. I am not normal. I don't have a normal stomach, and I've got to get used to that idea. I'm so thankful so the boyfriend and friends that put up with it all the time. I appreciate it! I'm just going to take it one day at a time, and be happy when I can get through a meal without throwing up!!