december is for cynics

[justplainemo]

i hate being pale. i hate having stress. i hate having to do work. i hate having to be places. i hate not being by a beach. i hate not being near him. i hate the fact that i havent seen my best friend in months. i hate not knowing the next time im going to see my boyfriend. i hate not being near all my friends. i hate that my ankle is fucked up and i dont know if im going to be able to run the marathon. i hate the cold. i hate it. i hate being uncertain. i hate not seeing my summer family every day. i hate missing people. i hate hating things. i hate that the winter is so much longer than the summer. i hate that summer has to end. i hate when things change and im not prepared for them to.

God i miss everyone.