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[justpatsy]

today i went to school wearing a wig and sunglasses. i confused a lot of people. it was interesting. this one kid asked me if i had been in that class all year or if i was new. ha. sucker. even when there are people around me i feel alone and empty. its a weird feeling. i dont like it one bit. i just wish she would wake up. and be better. and herself. i cannot believe her mom is attempting to reinvent her. it infuriates me. i want her to wake up and talk to me and to piper and tell us that shes okay and that shes hungry and wants to go get some tasty food and then go on some type of adventure. i want the doctors to have solid answers to our questions. arent they trained to know what is wrong with people and therefore how to treat them and get them better? arent they supposed to have answers? isnt that why they get paid a shit ton of money?
my brain is like a tv that doesnt work. it keeps flipping from channel to channel, but mostly it just stays fuzzy and snowy.