M is for the major ache in my heart...
I had the most amazing visit with my mother. She was here for three weeks and it still wasn’t enough time. I can truly say that my mommy is my best friend. I can quite literally tell her anything. At 71 years old, she is an incredible, intelligent, wonderful, loving and fun person. I hope to God I can turn out like her.
But… She had to go home again.
I don’t recall ever feeling so… sad. Not depressed, not bummed… but outright sad. I can’t remember the last time I’ve cried that hard… I don’t think I ever have. I cry at the loss of loved ones and other “appropriate” times. But its never been as gut-wrenchingly painful as saying goodbye to her was this time. Its been 2 weeks since I watched her disappear into the airport, and I’m still not myself. I miss her so terribly.
You haven’t seen me in a while… and probably won’t for a while again. I’m sorry if anyone is bothered by this. Its not likely… I’ve been gone so long now, I’m little more than a phantom. Least that’s how it feels…
I miss my mommy.
But… She had to go home again.
I don’t recall ever feeling so… sad. Not depressed, not bummed… but outright sad. I can’t remember the last time I’ve cried that hard… I don’t think I ever have. I cry at the loss of loved ones and other “appropriate” times. But its never been as gut-wrenchingly painful as saying goodbye to her was this time. Its been 2 weeks since I watched her disappear into the airport, and I’m still not myself. I miss her so terribly.
You haven’t seen me in a while… and probably won’t for a while again. I’m sorry if anyone is bothered by this. Its not likely… I’ve been gone so long now, I’m little more than a phantom. Least that’s how it feels…
I miss my mommy.