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It's been a while since I wrote here. Actually I haven't written anything lately.
Lot have changed. I'm a bit lost. I lost the big connection I had with church. I stopped watching my favorite shows, reading my books, singing (what I usually did in church) and I'm not sure if I feel like studying as hard as I used to.
I lost my hours of sleep, the regularity of my meals and my timing in general.
I'm suddenly no longer the girl who had her father picking her up when she only one block away from home, or the girl who doesn't know how to take a bus.
I no longer have someone to cook for me, or to clean my house and wash my clothes, or to drive me, or to push me into studying.
I no longer have someone to talk to when I wake up, to make me coffee and buy some bread.
I do it all now. I mean, I don't buy any bread in the morning, but I do the rest.
And that's this year. This semester actually.
Considering that last semester I was deeply involved in the furniture business and teaching high school subjects, but already with no books - that was really weird...I would have normally read a lot..
Anyway, I'm all weird now. I still gotta get used to myself, so I can't really expect that anyone will really get to know me, since I don't.
But we always get some illusions you know? Especially me, I've always been so silly. But I can't be a kid, though I'd really like to.
Still I'll always be a kid when I'm back home, which is also not right but..
I gotta stop complaining xp
Set the alarm for 7 am again
Haven't spoken to you since God-knows-when
Must have crushed our hearts this silent plan
But we all feel/fell apart when the play ends
And it has just began
Will it be the same
Once the circus's gone
The trampolines won't catch our falls
and monkeys won't come out to play
We'll be caught between real walls
whit bricks an all those sort of things
Our laughs could be misunderstood
our eyes should be more open
But in someway changes can be good
do you remember I never really liked the clowns?