sometimes there seems to be nothing

[justme_6]

feeling that nothingness
hurts me
it runs deep
deeper than i can remember
i try to be happy
but the feeling seems to linger
sometimes there seems to be nothing

one day it's all there
the truth be told
he was what i wanted
can there be something
will he 'make-up' his mind
to want me
somtimes there seems to be nothing

when i think about it
thoughts make me pissed
pissed that i was so stupid
to let him go
for just a day
sometimes there seems to be nothing

i cannot be upset
i needed to be sure
and now he needs to be sure
trying to see what good there is

i am an idiot.
i like him like no other
and there were boys before him
boys that there could have been something
but...

sometimes there seems to be nothing.