A journal entry...
James (J* extended) makes me smile. I cant believe that ia m actually still seeing him...honestly sort of shocking considering what a lunatic i think i am being all the damn time. but he makes me quite happy. We laugh a lot and watch movies and keep it light, which is somehting i have never had. I dont feel obligated or responsible for him it is just easy and nice. Makes me happy to say the least.
I sat and talked with patrick yesterday, did some honesty stuff. FOund out some things i already knew but needed to hear. That was pretty terrific actually. I just sat in his car and cried. Cried becuase i know we cant even have it back,cuz i dont know that i ever wanted what we did have...that makes sense to me and that is all that matters. i dont even know if it was english necessarily.
I am looking forward to xmas, even though it is goin to be lonely. I think i am going to take my old apt.
I have more news but i cant quite think right now. just wanted to update with happiness. Cause who knows how long this is going ot last..
I sat and talked with patrick yesterday, did some honesty stuff. FOund out some things i already knew but needed to hear. That was pretty terrific actually. I just sat in his car and cried. Cried becuase i know we cant even have it back,cuz i dont know that i ever wanted what we did have...that makes sense to me and that is all that matters. i dont even know if it was english necessarily.
I am looking forward to xmas, even though it is goin to be lonely. I think i am going to take my old apt.
I have more news but i cant quite think right now. just wanted to update with happiness. Cause who knows how long this is going ot last..