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so... shit's going down. i don't know what to do about this and it's so not good for me. hung out w/ josh today, we just sat for like 2 hours talking about writing and shit. it was so cool. and then he came to my house for dinner and we hung out some more. then jon calls, i told him i'd call him back, but then i went to drop josh off and jon came by my house and i wasn't there. so when i called him back he asked me where i was and i had to lie about what i was doing cos he hates josh and would be pissed if i was hanging out w/ him. i have no idea what to do. i like jon... but josh is so interesting and intriguing... he's seen so much and done so much. he ran away from home and just hit the road. how long have i been wanting to do that? he's like a beat incarnate. and i know he's not good for me. he's tried every fucking drug out there and is a coke addict and an alcoholic and smokes, etc etc etc... but something keeps drawing me in. this is so not helping. fuck this. i'm just not going to think about it. by the way, i failed my ap stats exam today. i don't even wanna talk about it. i have to do well on my other ones.