Lonely/Bored

[justlost]

There are reasons to why I dread returning to Dublin for even the shortest period of time. First of all, I raise my defenses to a high point here so that even if I wanted to there is no way I could do any magick. I guess it is because this place has so many painful memories, I feel vulnerable here. Also I don't really have anywhere I can go to just be myself. I go for walks, but in Muirfield (the yuppy neighborhood where my parents reside)you could walk around for hours and never find a place that isn't butted up against a house. Thirdly, none of my friends live here anymore, and me still being unable and unwilling to drive means that my chances of visiting them in Columbus are slim to none. I know I sound whiny, but gods damnit, I just want my space back. My mother works from home so I can't even pursue my normal means of entertaining myself (singing and dancing around the house, watching tv, reading and arguing with my books), I am confined to this little laptop, and so I am sooooooooooo bored!!!! I wish I could walk to someplace where people are, I could get a cup of coffee, write, read, sing, watch. *sigh* I want to go home - to Athens. I miss my town, I miss my pack, hell I even miss my crazy girlfriend.

For those of you who don't know my summer plans are taking care of my dying grandmother in Boston, I think I heading out there after the 4th of July. I should be back in Athens on Monday, and hopefully staying for a bit.

In other, more uplifting news, I have a new cellphone!!! But I have no numbers. Please give me numbers :-)