A new beginning
I have a friend who I've known forever that has always had a LJ. Before Myspace, or Xanga even, the journal existed. It always amazed me how poignantly she could write about her day to day life, keeping everyone clued in on everything from the latest and greatest adventures, down to the mundane day to day bits and pieces of life. It also amazed me that, while this friend and I may have lost close contact, the journal kept us together through random comments and shared entries. It bridged the distance gap when she left for college and I stayed closer to home, and it eventually helped us start talking again after a long time apart. Basically, it was the great connector that made her and I human and enabled our communication.
Now, I've tried blogging on MySpace, and I've tried keeping a journal to myself, but it just doesn't happen. MySpace is too impersonal, and a personal journal is, well, too personal. About a month ago, the aforementioned friend left me a note saying she wanted to hear all the details of my recent life, and get a broader story of the past month....Well, its taken me this long to respond, and a brand new journal seemed to be just the answer to the MySpace blogging and journal issues I was having. So here goes nothing!
For the past two years, I was dating a man I thought was my soul mate. We had been living together for over a year, I had my diamond ring and some additional jewelry that is only gifted upon a girlfriend when she's in a serious relationship. We had an apartment and a cat, I cooked and cleaned....By all appearances, quite a lovely little life. Well, about 6 weeks ago, he started to get close to a friend of a friend's who happend to be a girl. For LJ purposes, we'll call her L. He and L became closer and closer, despite the fact that they were both in other serious relationships. I am not a super needy or jealous girlfriend, so I let it go. Finally, one night when he and I were supposed to be havinga quiet night at home, L called and wanted to hang out. Begrudginly I got up and got ready and off we went, simply because L called. Well, relaxing at home with her and her boyfriend turned into a must-go trip to the bar. Being as I'm not quite legal yet, I stayed home. He said he'd be home early, not to worry, but long story short, he never came. I found him the next morning at L's. I never got a phone call or anything, and then he didn't understand why I was upset. That was the straw that broke the camel's back. Come to find out, less than 24 hrs later he was already dating someone else....In fact they got together just a few hours after I moved my things out, heartbroken. The real kicker is this: he'd been with the homewrecker (turns out she's one of L's best friends) for quite some time now....and I don't mean in just a friendly hi how are you way. Yup. I know how to pick em!
So for the first time since I graduated I am living at home again. I hate it. And my lovely cat that came out of my domestic bliss? He's with the ass and the homewrecker in what used to be my house. I can't have him at my mom's due to her dogs being incredibly antisocial. Yes, it all sucks and I'm very sad, but I know I'm better off without him. In fact, I think I miss the cat more than I'll ever miss him.
Thats been the broad and narrow view of the past month.....Its just been dealing with the shambles that is my relationship. Well, was my relationship I guess would be more accurate.
I left the bank I'd been working at too, and I start working at an elementary school on Monday. I'll have a kindergarten class. I'm terribly excited, and I think this is a great opportunity for a completely fresh start and my chance to move forward with my life.
So I guess I'll wrap it up for now, as that was a pretty narrow summary of things, but very long winded. :) Thanks to my friend for her suggestion, even if she didn't know she was suggesting it in the first place. We'll always have the journals, no?