Some things never change
Today I went to a baby shower. It was lovely. The baby is a month old. She was teeny tiny and I loved holding her. Everyone was joking about getting pregnant and I was even asked if I now want one. *rolls eyes* As if that's an option.
I know that I'm supposed to be patient and all... and I had a wonderful summer and at many times was relieved that I am single and had no attachments back home to worry me.
But sometimes, just sometimes, I get a little sick of watching others be in relationships, get married, and have children... without being able to experience that kind of joy myself. And it sucks.
Now I know the timing isn't right and so on and so forth.... but sometimes it feels like it will never happen. No one has even been remotely interested in me since high school... at least no one to my knowledge. I don't even really have any "almost" stories.
I just want to feel like there is hope in my future. I don't want to be single forever. I want to have a family...lots of kids... a really big family. I think it would be so fun! And I realize I'm only 23 and have time. But sometimes, it feels much longer when nothing is in sight.
I know what God has for me is best. But sometimes, I don't like it.
I know that I'm supposed to be patient and all... and I had a wonderful summer and at many times was relieved that I am single and had no attachments back home to worry me.
But sometimes, just sometimes, I get a little sick of watching others be in relationships, get married, and have children... without being able to experience that kind of joy myself. And it sucks.
Now I know the timing isn't right and so on and so forth.... but sometimes it feels like it will never happen. No one has even been remotely interested in me since high school... at least no one to my knowledge. I don't even really have any "almost" stories.
I just want to feel like there is hope in my future. I don't want to be single forever. I want to have a family...lots of kids... a really big family. I think it would be so fun! And I realize I'm only 23 and have time. But sometimes, it feels much longer when nothing is in sight.
I know what God has for me is best. But sometimes, I don't like it.