to have and to hold.
There is so much to say and I don't even know where to start.
To no one's surprise, I am horrible at planning a wedding. Not because I can't organize or be money-conscious, but because I cannot make decisions and I feel like a total bitch if I don't ask Will's opinion -- and then I get flustered when he says "I don't know, what do you think?" However, today, I am remaining relaxed about it because I just can't wait to be married to him. I'm so tired of travelling 125 miles one way to see him every other weekend. I hate leaving his arms Monday morning to go back to a life that seems half-empty when he's not there. I think before I was panicking about where we would live and how things would work, and now I'm just accepting that it will fall into place because that is the love of my life and I need to be where he is. Wedding planning is progressing though. We have a photographer, a venue, my dress, our bridal party, and almost a DJ. I think we'll be finalizing that this week, and we have a florist & rental place (chair covers) in mind. I've started working on favors and this weekend, we might go to Men's Warehouse to scout out suits/tuxedos. I might meet with a florist this week and also look at a place in Ellwood that does invitations. I've started to look at hotels also, trying to keep a rehearsal dinner space in mind.
Other news: Nipper will be leaving soon. It sucks. I've cried a stupid amount of times over it, but there's nothing I can do. I know that he will be loved there, but I can't help feeling that it's not a perfect match and I want him to live out the rest of his days in a home that truly treasures him. I'm concerned for Spirit when he leaves. I think we're going to try to keep him solo to see if his behavior improves, but I don't want that to be long term because I hate having just one here. If he doesn't get better, we're probably going to swap him out for other horses at the farm -- possibly Lady, who is blind, or Stretch, who is 17 hh. I really need to get on Spirit and put him into a routine. But I've picked up a second job, and things are a little crazy.
There's so much more I could say, but a ton of it would have to be censored or edited, and I just don't really have the patience for that tonight. I really need to clean out my room, what I have left in the garage and basement, and get my bedroom furniture sold. I'm seriously considering just throwing the majority of that stuff away because I'm not sure it's worth the time to go through and repack. The idea of touching it all stresses me to no end. I also need to get back into writing and more importantly start sending out my work. Really, I should get on top of auditions, but the idea of travelling into Pittsburgh to do a show on top of my two jobs, horses, and wedding planning is enough to make my head spin in the worst kind of way. Writing here has made me feel better though. I should really keep that up.
Tomorrow, I'll probably go into one or both jobs and perhaps hit a craft store to get some ideas for our favors. I need to get fly spray and grain, as well, and I could really use a chiropractor appointment. Wednesday, I'm doing lunch with Tina and Thursday I'm meeting Laura for dinner. I really need to get in touch with A'nne and I think Katie is actually mad at me. Anyway, I'm really just counting down until Friday when I can rush back out to Ohio and try to erase the stress.
To no one's surprise, I am horrible at planning a wedding. Not because I can't organize or be money-conscious, but because I cannot make decisions and I feel like a total bitch if I don't ask Will's opinion -- and then I get flustered when he says "I don't know, what do you think?" However, today, I am remaining relaxed about it because I just can't wait to be married to him. I'm so tired of travelling 125 miles one way to see him every other weekend. I hate leaving his arms Monday morning to go back to a life that seems half-empty when he's not there. I think before I was panicking about where we would live and how things would work, and now I'm just accepting that it will fall into place because that is the love of my life and I need to be where he is. Wedding planning is progressing though. We have a photographer, a venue, my dress, our bridal party, and almost a DJ. I think we'll be finalizing that this week, and we have a florist & rental place (chair covers) in mind. I've started working on favors and this weekend, we might go to Men's Warehouse to scout out suits/tuxedos. I might meet with a florist this week and also look at a place in Ellwood that does invitations. I've started to look at hotels also, trying to keep a rehearsal dinner space in mind.
Other news: Nipper will be leaving soon. It sucks. I've cried a stupid amount of times over it, but there's nothing I can do. I know that he will be loved there, but I can't help feeling that it's not a perfect match and I want him to live out the rest of his days in a home that truly treasures him. I'm concerned for Spirit when he leaves. I think we're going to try to keep him solo to see if his behavior improves, but I don't want that to be long term because I hate having just one here. If he doesn't get better, we're probably going to swap him out for other horses at the farm -- possibly Lady, who is blind, or Stretch, who is 17 hh. I really need to get on Spirit and put him into a routine. But I've picked up a second job, and things are a little crazy.
There's so much more I could say, but a ton of it would have to be censored or edited, and I just don't really have the patience for that tonight. I really need to clean out my room, what I have left in the garage and basement, and get my bedroom furniture sold. I'm seriously considering just throwing the majority of that stuff away because I'm not sure it's worth the time to go through and repack. The idea of touching it all stresses me to no end. I also need to get back into writing and more importantly start sending out my work. Really, I should get on top of auditions, but the idea of travelling into Pittsburgh to do a show on top of my two jobs, horses, and wedding planning is enough to make my head spin in the worst kind of way. Writing here has made me feel better though. I should really keep that up.
Tomorrow, I'll probably go into one or both jobs and perhaps hit a craft store to get some ideas for our favors. I need to get fly spray and grain, as well, and I could really use a chiropractor appointment. Wednesday, I'm doing lunch with Tina and Thursday I'm meeting Laura for dinner. I really need to get in touch with A'nne and I think Katie is actually mad at me. Anyway, I'm really just counting down until Friday when I can rush back out to Ohio and try to erase the stress.