this could get messy...
I'm kind of designing myself a new life.
I'm going through everything in my room, although it is taking a long time, and getting rid of stuff/organizing it. I hate doing it, but I know I'll be pleased with the end result. I think the worst is over, but it doesn't make it easier to go back to start again.
I'm also trying to plan a wedding. This is a task that might kill me. First of all, I may soon be crowned the queen of stress, so I'm not entirely sure I'm cut out for this task. Secondly, I've never pictured my wedding like most little girls do, so it has taken me a while to find my "vision" and now it's even harder to realize it. More about that later, probably in another entry.
My mom is having surgery on the 24th of February. It's hard to say exactly what our feelings are. She wants to do it so that she can get it over with, but at the same time is afraid, not that I blame her. I think I am ready to take over as temporary secretary at the garage, but I'm hesitant, of course, since I have no formal training in this and she's never been out for a month before. She's looking at four months at home, about 5+ days in the hospital. When I told Will the date, he immediately requested work off, but my mom really doesn't want anyone to see her in that condition, because they've told her to expect a lot of pain. I'm not really sure how to handle this situation. I know I'll want to be at the hospital with her a lot, but I also know I'm going to want him to come home to if I need a good cry. We'll play it by ear.
In that vein, I'm considering surgery on March 8th. Lasik, that is. My parents have agreed to pay for it if I do it before I'm married. I basically don't want to know anything about the procedure, but when I went, they told me my prescription strength indicates that I'm legally blind. I wanted to tell the lady to go fuck herself, because my eye doctors have never told me that, and I've never needed the strength they told me I did, and I see as well as possible with my current prescription, but whatever. No use arguing. I am nervous about doing it while my mom is still laid up though. However, you're supposed to fine after the weekend, and the surgery is on a Thursday, so I think it's definitely do-able. Not looking forward to sleeping with goggles on though for the first five nights.
I really need to come up with Valentine's Day plans and gifts. I'm going to try not to procrastinate like I usually do. I also need to figure out what to do about my Christmas watch fail...
Generally though, I'm good. My birth control got switched when we changed pharmacies and I am getting that motherfucker changed back immediately. It's making me hella emotional, even though it's the same exact dosage. I'm crying over stupid stuff, and if it's not the birth control, I'm gonna be hella pissed that I am one of those emotional brides. My mom and I have been getting together with my Aunt Donna and Grandma about once a month for lunch and that's wonderful. A'nne has also walked back into my life and I'm so enjoying our friendship again.
I'm going through everything in my room, although it is taking a long time, and getting rid of stuff/organizing it. I hate doing it, but I know I'll be pleased with the end result. I think the worst is over, but it doesn't make it easier to go back to start again.
I'm also trying to plan a wedding. This is a task that might kill me. First of all, I may soon be crowned the queen of stress, so I'm not entirely sure I'm cut out for this task. Secondly, I've never pictured my wedding like most little girls do, so it has taken me a while to find my "vision" and now it's even harder to realize it. More about that later, probably in another entry.
My mom is having surgery on the 24th of February. It's hard to say exactly what our feelings are. She wants to do it so that she can get it over with, but at the same time is afraid, not that I blame her. I think I am ready to take over as temporary secretary at the garage, but I'm hesitant, of course, since I have no formal training in this and she's never been out for a month before. She's looking at four months at home, about 5+ days in the hospital. When I told Will the date, he immediately requested work off, but my mom really doesn't want anyone to see her in that condition, because they've told her to expect a lot of pain. I'm not really sure how to handle this situation. I know I'll want to be at the hospital with her a lot, but I also know I'm going to want him to come home to if I need a good cry. We'll play it by ear.
In that vein, I'm considering surgery on March 8th. Lasik, that is. My parents have agreed to pay for it if I do it before I'm married. I basically don't want to know anything about the procedure, but when I went, they told me my prescription strength indicates that I'm legally blind. I wanted to tell the lady to go fuck herself, because my eye doctors have never told me that, and I've never needed the strength they told me I did, and I see as well as possible with my current prescription, but whatever. No use arguing. I am nervous about doing it while my mom is still laid up though. However, you're supposed to fine after the weekend, and the surgery is on a Thursday, so I think it's definitely do-able. Not looking forward to sleeping with goggles on though for the first five nights.
I really need to come up with Valentine's Day plans and gifts. I'm going to try not to procrastinate like I usually do. I also need to figure out what to do about my Christmas watch fail...
Generally though, I'm good. My birth control got switched when we changed pharmacies and I am getting that motherfucker changed back immediately. It's making me hella emotional, even though it's the same exact dosage. I'm crying over stupid stuff, and if it's not the birth control, I'm gonna be hella pissed that I am one of those emotional brides. My mom and I have been getting together with my Aunt Donna and Grandma about once a month for lunch and that's wonderful. A'nne has also walked back into my life and I'm so enjoying our friendship again.