To Lead a Better Life
Note To Self: I 07/24/05
You do this a lot. You start something but you never continue on with them. Try to make this one work. Otherwise, I don't know, we'll just be running in circles.
You found the girl of your dreams. And you've said that many times before, because you're quick with your mouth. But you know it's for real this time. This time you did it all by yourself. This time you get nervous around her. This time, she changed your life. Do yourself a favor. Don't ask too much of her. She's way beyond your standards in the first place. If she does something you don't agree with, don't patronize her for it.
You're scared too. You think every negative thing is a crater to the surface of your world. Relax and let things go. Take your own advice, you were never good with that.
Your music has evolved. You're writing about topics that have never been treaded upon by yourself. Congratulations. Keep it up. You love to explain what your songs mean because no one ever picks it up by themselves. But no one's even listening to that so just keep it to yourself for now unless someone asks. Remember: "real artists are only famous when they're dead."
You wanna finish this new CD. It's all about life as we know it. It's funny that it took this long to grow into the pen name you gave yourself. But at least you made it. Congratulations.
You went to church on your own today and you realized you did it for yourself. At first you thought it was her doing. But you got there and you realized you're searching for something. This "note to self" is your first step onwards. You really wanna get enlightened this time. You really wanna throw your all into everything you get your hands on. Go for it.
But you can't go for it as fast as you want to. You're scared. Scared that one wrong move, and it's all gone. Bet all your chips tonight. It's okay. If we're left with nothing, we'll build from scratch.
You keep thinking about her because she's your first priority right now. And you're okay with that. You're okay with giving your 110% to her. Just scared. We gotta knock the fear out of ourselves. It's just too good to be true. All your songs you wrote back in the day about dream girls you made up, they all fit her. She is your dream girl for real. Literally and figuratively. Congratulations. This is what you always wanted. But that's exactly it. You waited all your life and now what? It's a big responsibility. That's what's getting to you. It's okay. Everything is okay.
Don't forget you have this LJ when you have things to say. That's why you wrote this note to yourself. So you can get it all out. And now it's kind of like a reciept of letting it out.
Do you feel better?
Yes.
Do you feel crazy?
Yes.
I realize I'm just talking to myself.
But that's okay.
P.S.
Pay attention.
You do this a lot. You start something but you never continue on with them. Try to make this one work. Otherwise, I don't know, we'll just be running in circles.
You found the girl of your dreams. And you've said that many times before, because you're quick with your mouth. But you know it's for real this time. This time you did it all by yourself. This time you get nervous around her. This time, she changed your life. Do yourself a favor. Don't ask too much of her. She's way beyond your standards in the first place. If she does something you don't agree with, don't patronize her for it.
You're scared too. You think every negative thing is a crater to the surface of your world. Relax and let things go. Take your own advice, you were never good with that.
Your music has evolved. You're writing about topics that have never been treaded upon by yourself. Congratulations. Keep it up. You love to explain what your songs mean because no one ever picks it up by themselves. But no one's even listening to that so just keep it to yourself for now unless someone asks. Remember: "real artists are only famous when they're dead."
You wanna finish this new CD. It's all about life as we know it. It's funny that it took this long to grow into the pen name you gave yourself. But at least you made it. Congratulations.
You went to church on your own today and you realized you did it for yourself. At first you thought it was her doing. But you got there and you realized you're searching for something. This "note to self" is your first step onwards. You really wanna get enlightened this time. You really wanna throw your all into everything you get your hands on. Go for it.
But you can't go for it as fast as you want to. You're scared. Scared that one wrong move, and it's all gone. Bet all your chips tonight. It's okay. If we're left with nothing, we'll build from scratch.
You keep thinking about her because she's your first priority right now. And you're okay with that. You're okay with giving your 110% to her. Just scared. We gotta knock the fear out of ourselves. It's just too good to be true. All your songs you wrote back in the day about dream girls you made up, they all fit her. She is your dream girl for real. Literally and figuratively. Congratulations. This is what you always wanted. But that's exactly it. You waited all your life and now what? It's a big responsibility. That's what's getting to you. It's okay. Everything is okay.
Don't forget you have this LJ when you have things to say. That's why you wrote this note to yourself. So you can get it all out. And now it's kind of like a reciept of letting it out.
Do you feel better?
Yes.
Do you feel crazy?
Yes.
I realize I'm just talking to myself.
But that's okay.
P.S.
Pay attention.