I'm gonna be ok...thanks for listening :)
So much on my mind tonight... I am spinning...my mind is on overload. Life is good it really is but it is so unfair sometimes. I'm sick of waiting. I am sick of waiting for "someday". Its that logic vs emotion/ head vs heart thing...its a constant battle and some days the emotion is stronger and my mind races, thankfully the logic has been keeping me sane most days lately. The logic that reminds me that I am a good catch, that I am worth loving and that there is a guy out there who WANTS to adore me and put me first and love me as much as I love him. But the emotion says "yeah but..." yeah but you haven't found that yet and every time you think you have it slips away from you. The emotion says your running out of time, the emotion says get used to being alone cuz its not changing any time soon. Some days its easier than others to fight the emotion and keep the logic in the front of my mind. Today I am just struggling but thankfully the logic is still there and I still know those facts at least in my head, if not in my heart.