c'est la vie
so.
things I need to get out.
I don't have enough credits to graduate. not even close.
I have my former self to thank for that.
As a freshmen, i was drunk or high nearly everyday of school.
needless to say, I may have only passed one or two classes that year.
I might be moving to seattle/redmond soon, transferring schools.
I need to get away from shelton,
from all of these people that remind me that I'm nothing like them.
I'm skeptical about moving because during the past couple of weeks, my life has changed dramatically.
I have a couple new people in my life and those boys mean the world to me.
I have not been interacting with the same people.
I've found many new friends, unexpected friends.
I feel like I've grown up a lot this year.
I'm losing touch with this town
and with the people I once called my circle of friends.
I set foot in the choir room today for the first time in over a month.
it was such a strange feeling.
for the first time, I really didn't feel like I belonged there.
I'm okay with that, surprisingly.
My future is extremely blurry,
I have been so focused on going off to art school,
that I haven't been paying much attention to high school.
smart move.
five years ago, who would have thought that I would be such a terrible student?
I know I didn't see it coming.
Of course, I did nothing to stop it.
I've been single for about three weeks,
and for once, I have no desire whatsoever to begin dating again.
It's an odd feeling for me.
I've found that the guys around here make amazing friends, but nothing more.
I've changed. hopefully for the better.
i know it's for the better.
I'm not afraid of my future anymore, because I know that there is a plan for me.
I'm just content with life.
I content knowing that when I go to school tomorrow,
someone; some stranger is going to look at me and judge me.
but it wont bother me, not in the least.
I love life.
things I need to get out.
I don't have enough credits to graduate. not even close.
I have my former self to thank for that.
As a freshmen, i was drunk or high nearly everyday of school.
needless to say, I may have only passed one or two classes that year.
I might be moving to seattle/redmond soon, transferring schools.
I need to get away from shelton,
from all of these people that remind me that I'm nothing like them.
I'm skeptical about moving because during the past couple of weeks, my life has changed dramatically.
I have a couple new people in my life and those boys mean the world to me.
I have not been interacting with the same people.
I've found many new friends, unexpected friends.
I feel like I've grown up a lot this year.
I'm losing touch with this town
and with the people I once called my circle of friends.
I set foot in the choir room today for the first time in over a month.
it was such a strange feeling.
for the first time, I really didn't feel like I belonged there.
I'm okay with that, surprisingly.
My future is extremely blurry,
I have been so focused on going off to art school,
that I haven't been paying much attention to high school.
smart move.
five years ago, who would have thought that I would be such a terrible student?
I know I didn't see it coming.
Of course, I did nothing to stop it.
I've been single for about three weeks,
and for once, I have no desire whatsoever to begin dating again.
It's an odd feeling for me.
I've found that the guys around here make amazing friends, but nothing more.
I've changed. hopefully for the better.
i know it's for the better.
I'm not afraid of my future anymore, because I know that there is a plan for me.
I'm just content with life.
I content knowing that when I go to school tomorrow,
someone; some stranger is going to look at me and judge me.
but it wont bother me, not in the least.
I love life.