Apr 02, 2007 15:00
I sort of don’t know what to say anymore.
I’ve realized recently that I’m a very jealous person, though I tend to hide it by glaring when their backs are turned. I don’t know why I am, and now that I think on it, I have been since grade 7 after I broke up with my first ex.
A guy at my work was hitting on me Thursday. Rather scared me, because he acted just like another guy who does that too. And he’s taken to touching my nametag lately while in the process of touching my boob at the same time.
I was suspended from work for arguing with my manager. I hate being angry and upset and I really wish I could change. I don’t know where to start though. I’ve already lost multiple friends and possible boyfriends because of my anger and I don’t want to anymore.
I’m very self conscious and I have low self esteem. The person who was hitting on me was complimenting me and it made me more self conscious than I was before. I don’t know why, and when people say negative things now, I act like they’re compliments, saying, Oh yeah I know, and such things, and I don’t think it’s very good.
Overall I think I’m a pretty shitty person. But that’s a negative thing isn’t it?