Yeah it's been a while
I know it's been a while since I have posted. Truth be told I haven't really been all that motivated...to do that or much of anything lately. Yes my job is getting slightly more bearable but that doesn't change the fact that I want out...and fast. Oh and they cut my hours back down to 30 too. I did the math and found out that at this rate, I will only make about 600 bucks a month. Can you say below the poverty line? There HAS to be something better out there for me. At least that's what I keep trying to tell myself in between bouts of having my very will to exist sucked out of me through a straw. And I swear there are days where I just want to jump the counter and fucking dropkick the next couple who makes out in the lobby. Some of us don't need to be seeing shit like that ok?
Speaking of seeing shit like that, I did something a few weeks ago that I ended up putting off long enough. I got rid of any evidence that she had ever even been a part of my life. I just took the box that had everything in it from her, and did to it what she did to me: threw it away. Appropriate I think. The sliver lining here is that I am thinking about the whole mess a little less each day. Though there are days that I do feel the sting. But I am dealing, and surviving. I found out that one of the college bookstores in oakland is hiring. I don't know if it is just seasonal or a chance to stick around, but I will give them a shot anyway. Because I am starting to think that hell will freeze over before I successfully get a job at the book center, or anywhere else on campus that would enable me to once again be able to afford to fight for my future. Assuming I still have one at all.
Speaking of seeing shit like that, I did something a few weeks ago that I ended up putting off long enough. I got rid of any evidence that she had ever even been a part of my life. I just took the box that had everything in it from her, and did to it what she did to me: threw it away. Appropriate I think. The sliver lining here is that I am thinking about the whole mess a little less each day. Though there are days that I do feel the sting. But I am dealing, and surviving. I found out that one of the college bookstores in oakland is hiring. I don't know if it is just seasonal or a chance to stick around, but I will give them a shot anyway. Because I am starting to think that hell will freeze over before I successfully get a job at the book center, or anywhere else on campus that would enable me to once again be able to afford to fight for my future. Assuming I still have one at all.