bumps in the road
fucking a i thought everything was going good until yesterday. ok about a week ago id say my grams Richardson (my moms mom) fell and broke her pelvis. she didn't need surgery or anything just needed to rest and go to a retirement home to relearn how to walk on it. no problem really i mean she broke her hip a year or two ago and had to have surgery so this was a small bump. the yesterday she went into the ICU with pneumonia and is in VERY VERY critical condition. the doctors gave her 30% chance of surviving. Last night we went to go see her and see how she was doing basically shitty shes on 100% oxygen and they are having a VERY hard time getting the oxygen to her blood. i feel like everything thats happening is a dream it doesn't feel real. so yea last night i basically said my peace told her don't hold on for us its ok to let go that we will love her no matter what. that she will be happier with gramps and her family. it was really weird on the way home it was me, dad, mom and Jamie my brother and the whole way home no one really said much. i don't know what to do or say anymore i just feel so lost right now i don't even know what to think. the odd thing is this is not the first time dealing with death but it feels as if it is. right now my grams is on life support but i think thats only tell my uncle mike gets her to say goodbye then i think we are going to let her go. im not looking forward too that at all. after that ill only have one grams left.