germany briefness

[justinius]

Spring break went well and I really enjoyed the week in Germany. It reawakened a few things within me and as a result I'm going to strive to concentrate more on my studies. It also gave me time to think of a few things that have been going on and I finally came to terms with what it is that I've been feeling. Of course I've acknowledged that something has been up for a while, but I've finally accepted what it is that is 'up'. Now I just need to deal with it and it'll all be okay. Funny how what I had once thought of as being a very minor issue... small fish in contrast to the other things that I was sorting through, in the end, it's what's been nagging at me for a while. The most unfortunate thing about it is that I can't talk about it with anyone so I really can't get any prospective (which, btw, is what I need right now). I also just want to get it out. This is the type of thing that I'd immediately talk about, but due to events that have unravled over this past semester (and much of the last), I believe it could only make things worse (it's a very sensitive issue).
Well, yesterday went well... last night wasn't so good but that's just because my mind got back on the track of certain things (see last paragraph).
I just want to post this thought:
It's rather unfortunate that the most important things to me in my life just so happen to all be out of my control. What I need to concentrate on is what I do have control over... my studies. The important stuff (whether I'll be known as "Grandpa Robinson" or "Old Man Robinson who lives on the corner") will have to work itself out... which is a bit unnerving. I'm fine with it though. Whatever happens happens.