if only i could turn back time...
so i talk to amber and she moved back and come to find out fred died :'( i started crying when she told me and then she tells me weezer ran away and sparky has to live w carl god damn i get tears in my eyes just thinking about all that, its so sad :( and if u think im stupid for crying over a ferret FUCK YOU!
talking about animals makes me wish i was little again, i miss foxy.. 5 years or not i still cry every time i think about her i wud stay 13 forvrer just to be with her all the time.. and not have any worries, and just be carefree
i fucking hate being old. i hate having responsibilities and deaths and learning and work and knowing taht i cant go abck and ill never ever experience what it was like to be little again... ever.
i never want to grow up :( too bad i already fucking have. once your old u cant do whatever you want anymore.
if u steal it isnt cute nemore, if u drink its not just Ohh shes just experimenting, if u do unrational things at random times its not just her being immature bc shes little, everyone takes everything seriosuly and the younger or stupider you act the more fucked you are and you just have to become mature even if you dont want too., some things taht people do when theyre mature you can control and not do and try to hold on to that little bit of innocence forever, but eventually there will be nothing left and ur a fucking adult. i never want to feel taht way
but i will, yeah i will
im also scared to death of dying which is ineveitable, because say there isnt a god, then im just going to be done gone finished and its hard to imagine not being here and thinking and realizing when ur done ur done it doesnt even seem possible, but also the thought of there being a god scares me too bc id be going strait to hell and hell sounds like a scary place to be. and who cares if tehres an afterlife bc its not like youll be you. its not like if there is, ppl remember their before lives. man i cant even talk about it
its also scary to think of what the future holds bc its like you ARE gonna get older and beceom something in life, but what will u become? will u even be happy?
ohh man i dano, kids r so lucky
talking about animals makes me wish i was little again, i miss foxy.. 5 years or not i still cry every time i think about her i wud stay 13 forvrer just to be with her all the time.. and not have any worries, and just be carefree
i fucking hate being old. i hate having responsibilities and deaths and learning and work and knowing taht i cant go abck and ill never ever experience what it was like to be little again... ever.
i never want to grow up :( too bad i already fucking have. once your old u cant do whatever you want anymore.
if u steal it isnt cute nemore, if u drink its not just Ohh shes just experimenting, if u do unrational things at random times its not just her being immature bc shes little, everyone takes everything seriosuly and the younger or stupider you act the more fucked you are and you just have to become mature even if you dont want too., some things taht people do when theyre mature you can control and not do and try to hold on to that little bit of innocence forever, but eventually there will be nothing left and ur a fucking adult. i never want to feel taht way
but i will, yeah i will
im also scared to death of dying which is ineveitable, because say there isnt a god, then im just going to be done gone finished and its hard to imagine not being here and thinking and realizing when ur done ur done it doesnt even seem possible, but also the thought of there being a god scares me too bc id be going strait to hell and hell sounds like a scary place to be. and who cares if tehres an afterlife bc its not like youll be you. its not like if there is, ppl remember their before lives. man i cant even talk about it
its also scary to think of what the future holds bc its like you ARE gonna get older and beceom something in life, but what will u become? will u even be happy?
ohh man i dano, kids r so lucky