Let's recall..shall we?
On March 23 I ranted about a specific event that frustrated me to high heavens.
Here's an exerpt: I don't understand why guys think its cool to ask girls out online.
Here's my mistake: Then this kid from my journalism class (who is still harping on me) asked me out..I made the mistake of telling him he had a better chance then the kid from my politcal science class.
Here's my problem: after telling this kid from my journalism class over and over that i really wasn't interested in dating and I didn't want any kind of relationship---the kid EMAIL'S ME and ASKS ME OUT. Now you may be wondering what the big deal is but as I've disscussed in detail--I DON'T WANT TO DATE ANYONE THAT LIVES OVER 25 MILES AWAY FROM ME. I just don't see the point and to be quite hoenst, I'm not intereseted in dating right now. I like being single (although sometimes I have weak moments) I just don't like to deal with that petty crap. Its an annoyance.
I know that once I meet someone I actually click with than it will be great. Until then I have no problem being single...and no problem turning down guys i'm not interested in. I'm not going to force myself to like someone so they feel good about themselves. I'm sorry someone put me through that this year and I'm not going to do that to someone else. At the rate I'm going--I've turned down two guys--I'll never find what I want..but that's okay to me because I know what I want and I'm not going to settle for something less and wait for something better to come along. I may sound stuck up and bitchy but really that's the way it has to be.
It frustrates me to no end because everyone makes dating such a big deal. It's not the most important thing and just because I haven't had a relationship doesn't mean I'm going to be taken advantage of in the future. Maybe I make it to such a big deal but oh well I dont care. I wish I could be done with it all..
If summer brings me something great thats sweet, If not oh well i'll go on living my life.