It's been a long time . . .
It's been a long time since I last updated this thing. Part of it is because I don't get online very often anymore. After things with Andie and I went downhill I found myself being online a lot, so now I try to keep myself entertained with other means of excitement.
Andie and I are....well friends now. We hang out quite often and we get along for the most part, but it doesn't feel the same. We need to talk about what's going on but it's a difficult subject to bring up. We have been fighting quite a bit lately. I don't know, it's just weird.
I went out with Sam a few times over a month ago and it just didn't feel right. I didn't feel for her the way I did for Andie, but that doesn't mean I want to be with Andie. I realized I wasn't ready, so instead of doing the honorable thing and talking to Sam about it, I coward away and hadn't really called her in the last month.
Everything's just confusing.
As far as the rest of my life, I'm working at Medtronic again and that's pretty cool except the whole being there at 7 a.m. kinda sucks. I need to go to bed earlier. But they're paying me well there and that's really good. I need the money especially when I hit school and I don't have any money.
This weekend I did something I at times regret, but for the most part feel good about doing. I messed things up with my friend, well I guess ex-friend Britanny. That's not what I am proud of though. That's the part that kind of sucks. Britanny is a pretty cool person, but I had to do what I did. She has practically been dating my friend Logan for the past couple months, everything except for the label of boyfriend and girlfriend, which Logan wants but Britanny doesn't. But why doesn't she? They see each other quite frequently, indulge themselves in sexual activities, and go out on dates. How aren't they dating? But Britanny turns around and tells Brock she has no interest in Logan. On top of all this Britanny slept with another guy a while back, while her and Logan were in the more courting stages, but I'm quite sure after they had already been intimate.
I was looking out for my friend. Logan is one of my best friends and I'd do anything for him. I haven't been that great of a friend because I haven't called him to hang out or whatever, but I have been busy and Britanny bitched at me because I hadn't tried to do anything with them in "months" according to her, but that's not true. Does she realize it isn't a one-way street and she could contact me too?
Basically I called Britanny's cell phone, got her voice-mail and said to tell logan before I did the next night because I was going to see Land of the Dead with him. After a few choice words on both of our parts she told me to never call her again. I do realize they weren't officially dating, but it's still wrong because Logan asked her about it and she said she didn't do anything with the guy. Why do people have to lie? By spending all of this time with people around Manchester I am beginning to wonder if the entire world is wrapped up in sex, lies, and secrets. That's all the circle of friends around manchester was. People keeping secrets from certain people and telling others. People lying directly to each others' faces and some just having sex which causes so many problems. I'm tired of it. So I did something. I risked mine and Britanny's friendship to finally get some truth out. So Logan would know what the fuck actually happened. I knew the risk and I took it because it sucks to find out so fucking bad...trust me I know. Especially when it's supposed to be someone you trust. There's so much more to say about that, but I don't even feel like it right now.
Then there's Brock who I called yesterday....Britanny has him wrapped around her finger. He is the only person who believes Britanny didn't sleep with Thomas. She told him it was all rumors and lies and he believed her. I mean why shouldn't he believe her, it's the woman he wants to marry some day and she wants nothing to do with Logan anyways(according to him). She'd never lie to him, right? It's odd how quickly he forgot about the Tony situation. She told him there was nothing happening there and she wasn't interested in Tony and so on, but who was the one that Brock called at 3 a.m. and who told him the flat out truth. Me. How have I steered him wrong and been bad to him? I haven't lied to him, but he's siding with the person who has. But it's his choice. Everyone makes their choices and they can't blame it on others. Some people choose to lie, some people choose to cheat, some people choose to just not care....but I chose to help a friend, and finally try to stop some secrecy....too bad I stopped more than that...but we all have to pay for our choices. Good Luck All.
Andie and I are....well friends now. We hang out quite often and we get along for the most part, but it doesn't feel the same. We need to talk about what's going on but it's a difficult subject to bring up. We have been fighting quite a bit lately. I don't know, it's just weird.
I went out with Sam a few times over a month ago and it just didn't feel right. I didn't feel for her the way I did for Andie, but that doesn't mean I want to be with Andie. I realized I wasn't ready, so instead of doing the honorable thing and talking to Sam about it, I coward away and hadn't really called her in the last month.
Everything's just confusing.
As far as the rest of my life, I'm working at Medtronic again and that's pretty cool except the whole being there at 7 a.m. kinda sucks. I need to go to bed earlier. But they're paying me well there and that's really good. I need the money especially when I hit school and I don't have any money.
This weekend I did something I at times regret, but for the most part feel good about doing. I messed things up with my friend, well I guess ex-friend Britanny. That's not what I am proud of though. That's the part that kind of sucks. Britanny is a pretty cool person, but I had to do what I did. She has practically been dating my friend Logan for the past couple months, everything except for the label of boyfriend and girlfriend, which Logan wants but Britanny doesn't. But why doesn't she? They see each other quite frequently, indulge themselves in sexual activities, and go out on dates. How aren't they dating? But Britanny turns around and tells Brock she has no interest in Logan. On top of all this Britanny slept with another guy a while back, while her and Logan were in the more courting stages, but I'm quite sure after they had already been intimate.
I was looking out for my friend. Logan is one of my best friends and I'd do anything for him. I haven't been that great of a friend because I haven't called him to hang out or whatever, but I have been busy and Britanny bitched at me because I hadn't tried to do anything with them in "months" according to her, but that's not true. Does she realize it isn't a one-way street and she could contact me too?
Basically I called Britanny's cell phone, got her voice-mail and said to tell logan before I did the next night because I was going to see Land of the Dead with him. After a few choice words on both of our parts she told me to never call her again. I do realize they weren't officially dating, but it's still wrong because Logan asked her about it and she said she didn't do anything with the guy. Why do people have to lie? By spending all of this time with people around Manchester I am beginning to wonder if the entire world is wrapped up in sex, lies, and secrets. That's all the circle of friends around manchester was. People keeping secrets from certain people and telling others. People lying directly to each others' faces and some just having sex which causes so many problems. I'm tired of it. So I did something. I risked mine and Britanny's friendship to finally get some truth out. So Logan would know what the fuck actually happened. I knew the risk and I took it because it sucks to find out so fucking bad...trust me I know. Especially when it's supposed to be someone you trust. There's so much more to say about that, but I don't even feel like it right now.
Then there's Brock who I called yesterday....Britanny has him wrapped around her finger. He is the only person who believes Britanny didn't sleep with Thomas. She told him it was all rumors and lies and he believed her. I mean why shouldn't he believe her, it's the woman he wants to marry some day and she wants nothing to do with Logan anyways(according to him). She'd never lie to him, right? It's odd how quickly he forgot about the Tony situation. She told him there was nothing happening there and she wasn't interested in Tony and so on, but who was the one that Brock called at 3 a.m. and who told him the flat out truth. Me. How have I steered him wrong and been bad to him? I haven't lied to him, but he's siding with the person who has. But it's his choice. Everyone makes their choices and they can't blame it on others. Some people choose to lie, some people choose to cheat, some people choose to just not care....but I chose to help a friend, and finally try to stop some secrecy....too bad I stopped more than that...but we all have to pay for our choices. Good Luck All.