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Synopsis of recent:
• I have a dress.
• Great trip to Great America was great and absolutely necessary. (And even renewed my faith in humanity.)
• Finally working on cosplay stuff for this year and realised it's been completely unnecessary for me to worry over the financial situation regarding that.
• Want to start on a new writing project for DoD. I've also had this writing thing to do for CoX that I haven't done yet.
• I'm down on myself because no matter how I forced it or wanted to, my insecurities got the better of me. I could turn around and reapply, but in the end, I'd only worry that I couldn't be up to the standards of the minority as opposed to the majority. I'm absolutely tormented by this and imagine I will be for a while.
• I'm thinking about where I want to go and what I want to do and with whom. Recent. Tomorrow. Next week. Next month. Next year. Et cetera.
• Faintly annoyed with flaky people, but I seem to know a lot of them and even if it's not right, it's not really something to get worked up over. (Not to mention that I have been a bit flaky myself, mostly due to IRL interference.)
Goodbye to old chapters that I wish I didn't have to say goodbye to.
Hello to the future.
I'm scared that we'll lose touch or that none of them will have anything to do with me from now on. I hope it doesn't happen.
• I have a dress.
• Great trip to Great America was great and absolutely necessary. (And even renewed my faith in humanity.)
• Finally working on cosplay stuff for this year and realised it's been completely unnecessary for me to worry over the financial situation regarding that.
• Want to start on a new writing project for DoD. I've also had this writing thing to do for CoX that I haven't done yet.
• I'm down on myself because no matter how I forced it or wanted to, my insecurities got the better of me. I could turn around and reapply, but in the end, I'd only worry that I couldn't be up to the standards of the minority as opposed to the majority. I'm absolutely tormented by this and imagine I will be for a while.
• I'm thinking about where I want to go and what I want to do and with whom. Recent. Tomorrow. Next week. Next month. Next year. Et cetera.
• Faintly annoyed with flaky people, but I seem to know a lot of them and even if it's not right, it's not really something to get worked up over. (Not to mention that I have been a bit flaky myself, mostly due to IRL interference.)
Goodbye to old chapters that I wish I didn't have to say goodbye to.
Hello to the future.
I'm scared that we'll lose touch or that none of them will have anything to do with me from now on. I hope it doesn't happen.