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So okay I have began going out ther and dating. There are two guys I'm talking to right now. Tim and Ricky. Other prospects are Rey and Hamlet. Anywho..let the story begin.
Tim is this really cute older guy I met online. He's 35, but looks like he's like 25. In person he is so cool and reserved. Which i like. He is also refined and so well manered. Everthing is a pardon me, I'm sorry. If he doesn't hear you. He looks you directly in the eyes when youspeak and pays attenetion to what I say. He always has an interesting story to tell to counter some opinion or comment I just said, and he is set in life. He is doing something he loves for a living anf gets paid very well to do it. He shops like a diva, looks like your typical pretty boy, and isn't ashamed to kep it real. I like him alot alot. All this from one date and a few days of converstation on the phone. putting eachother to bed and such. He works for an airline so he travels alot and he isn't always readily available I have learned when he's in the air. I don't like that too much. NEWAY. After our first date (a korean Rest.and a movie, Hide and Seek)
Because of his lacking animated personality, I felt I may have not left a good impression much less a chance for a second date but I wasn't sure. SO i called my support group. Angie and Ant on what I like to call the ultimate threeway.lol They consoled me in my temporary insanity, because I thought I was a horrible date. I don't want to be a Horrible date, then it will be a pattern, then i will be a serial bad dater. So anyway after agonizing for an hour or so I went to bed. Overnight Tim sent me a text with a smile. That's it The following day I caught him online and we talked. He said he had fun and wanted to do it again soon. That's good right? Not for me. I grilled him some more. I was like "are you sure?" He assured me yes he want s to see me again, but because of his schedule it has been hard since our date to catch eachother on the phone, He's most likely on line via his laptop if he can't be on his phone while in the air or in the terminals. So we talked yesterday, and we made some unsolid plans to see eachother tuesday. But he won't really have any real free time to see me until the 18th. He's a busy guy. But I like him.
So my problem is this..there always has to be a problem.
I'm afraid I have nothing to offer this man in return if we pursue a relationship. He's 35, explored the world, ready to settle, has a job and apt. Friends. I am what? A 21 year old who is in between school, with a mediocre job. living with his mom. Sounds very balnced huh? Ant says I have to offer him my heart and love and that I am a great guy for him to have. All he prolly wnats from me is love.
Okay, Cause it seems love is all I have to give. I just wish I had more. It's just not fair...
Plus, we have only been on one date..I'm jumping the gun with all this worry. Right?
more in a few ..BRB
Tim is this really cute older guy I met online. He's 35, but looks like he's like 25. In person he is so cool and reserved. Which i like. He is also refined and so well manered. Everthing is a pardon me, I'm sorry. If he doesn't hear you. He looks you directly in the eyes when youspeak and pays attenetion to what I say. He always has an interesting story to tell to counter some opinion or comment I just said, and he is set in life. He is doing something he loves for a living anf gets paid very well to do it. He shops like a diva, looks like your typical pretty boy, and isn't ashamed to kep it real. I like him alot alot. All this from one date and a few days of converstation on the phone. putting eachother to bed and such. He works for an airline so he travels alot and he isn't always readily available I have learned when he's in the air. I don't like that too much. NEWAY. After our first date (a korean Rest.and a movie, Hide and Seek)
Because of his lacking animated personality, I felt I may have not left a good impression much less a chance for a second date but I wasn't sure. SO i called my support group. Angie and Ant on what I like to call the ultimate threeway.lol They consoled me in my temporary insanity, because I thought I was a horrible date. I don't want to be a Horrible date, then it will be a pattern, then i will be a serial bad dater. So anyway after agonizing for an hour or so I went to bed. Overnight Tim sent me a text with a smile. That's it The following day I caught him online and we talked. He said he had fun and wanted to do it again soon. That's good right? Not for me. I grilled him some more. I was like "are you sure?" He assured me yes he want s to see me again, but because of his schedule it has been hard since our date to catch eachother on the phone, He's most likely on line via his laptop if he can't be on his phone while in the air or in the terminals. So we talked yesterday, and we made some unsolid plans to see eachother tuesday. But he won't really have any real free time to see me until the 18th. He's a busy guy. But I like him.
So my problem is this..there always has to be a problem.
I'm afraid I have nothing to offer this man in return if we pursue a relationship. He's 35, explored the world, ready to settle, has a job and apt. Friends. I am what? A 21 year old who is in between school, with a mediocre job. living with his mom. Sounds very balnced huh? Ant says I have to offer him my heart and love and that I am a great guy for him to have. All he prolly wnats from me is love.
Okay, Cause it seems love is all I have to give. I just wish I had more. It's just not fair...
Plus, we have only been on one date..I'm jumping the gun with all this worry. Right?
more in a few ..BRB