006.
This is rapidly becoming unbearable. My headache persists, and things themselves have only gotten worse. A woman has attached herself with me with every intention, it seems, of driving me completely insane. I am no closer to catching and ending Muraki. And I can feel myself sinking into the dull morass of boredom and apathy. Long enough, and I will not be able to get out of it. My dreams are restless and too often concern Near, or worse, L. Why can't they leave me alone?
There are vampires here. Vampires! I don't want to believe it, but I've met two, and they make my skin...crawl. What do I make of them? They kill because they must, but they are still killers. And one - one, claims only to kill the evildoer. I almost wonder what she would think of my world...the one I'll now never create.
She plans to kill Muraki. The one purpose I have here, and she will take it from me as easily as a toy from a child. And then what will I do?
There is a young woman, Scherezade, here. I am going to teach her Japanese in return for her teaching me her language. She reminds me a little of Sayu. That will occupy some time, and at least part of my mind, but it won't be enough. I need more.
I feel so helpless. Helpless and empty. I had my purpose for so long...I need my Note.
This is not a punishment. I know that much. I know it. I am guilty of nothing.
And I will still find a way to win. I don't give up. I can't.
There are vampires here. Vampires! I don't want to believe it, but I've met two, and they make my skin...crawl. What do I make of them? They kill because they must, but they are still killers. And one - one, claims only to kill the evildoer. I almost wonder what she would think of my world...the one I'll now never create.
She plans to kill Muraki. The one purpose I have here, and she will take it from me as easily as a toy from a child. And then what will I do?
There is a young woman, Scherezade, here. I am going to teach her Japanese in return for her teaching me her language. She reminds me a little of Sayu. That will occupy some time, and at least part of my mind, but it won't be enough. I need more.
I feel so helpless. Helpless and empty. I had my purpose for so long...I need my Note.
This is not a punishment. I know that much. I know it. I am guilty of nothing.
And I will still find a way to win. I don't give up. I can't.