002.
Heartbeat: extant, steady, normal. Vision: clear, if not clearer than usual. Taste-
This is useless. I am clearly alive, or show all the signs of being alive. And yet somehow I am not. Or not alive and where I should be, and in that case, what difference does it make? This is clearly not Japan - I begin to doubt that it is even earth. There is something strange here...
There is a scar in the center of my left hand, and I checked my shoulder as well. There too, the entry and exit wounds of the bullet, like Christ's stigmata...but no one has rolled back the stone. I remain confused. I remain, more importantly, abandoned.
I should not have trusted in anyone. That was when things began to fail - when I began to bring others into my confidence. They were all too human, too soft, too - they did not understand, not the way they needed to. Mikami failed me. Takada failed me. Misa failed me, in her capture - was that the beginning of the end? When perfection began to slip-?
I could examine where my mistake was forever. The fact remains that they all failed me, and the central mistake is clear: trust no one.
Too many of them are rotten. Too many of them are weak, spineless.
L could have. L would have had the mind, the will, the strength to understand. But L was shackled by the Law, hobbled by it, and could not break those chains to reach what I have. Justice.
It is almost disappointing to realize that.
This is useless. I am clearly alive, or show all the signs of being alive. And yet somehow I am not. Or not alive and where I should be, and in that case, what difference does it make? This is clearly not Japan - I begin to doubt that it is even earth. There is something strange here...
There is a scar in the center of my left hand, and I checked my shoulder as well. There too, the entry and exit wounds of the bullet, like Christ's stigmata...but no one has rolled back the stone. I remain confused. I remain, more importantly, abandoned.
I should not have trusted in anyone. That was when things began to fail - when I began to bring others into my confidence. They were all too human, too soft, too - they did not understand, not the way they needed to. Mikami failed me. Takada failed me. Misa failed me, in her capture - was that the beginning of the end? When perfection began to slip-?
I could examine where my mistake was forever. The fact remains that they all failed me, and the central mistake is clear: trust no one.
Too many of them are rotten. Too many of them are weak, spineless.
L could have. L would have had the mind, the will, the strength to understand. But L was shackled by the Law, hobbled by it, and could not break those chains to reach what I have. Justice.
It is almost disappointing to realize that.