Thats what I was tryign to do...
*looks up at the music and sighs*
Yeah this isn't going to be a good post.
For anyone that actually kept up with my LJ guess what?
I'm doing an entry!!! I know it has been a very long time but my life has been so busy that I haven't had time to post here....now I have the time but I've been avoiding it. I'll get to that later.
Okay good news first.
I finished my last semester at MTSU with straight A's. YAY! AND I got accepted into Vanderbilt Medical for my one year of Radiation Therapy training. After that I'll be done with formal schooling and shall be a certified Radiation Therapist and I so look forward to that.
Now bad news...
Angel and I are no longer together. *lets that sink in*
Yeah her and I parted ways romanticly but not in our friendship. Though we are no longer as close as we were before I still feel her arms around me when I need her and I hope she feels the same for they are always open for her. *chuckles* I'm still the hopeful romantic.
*sighs and listens to the song* This song these days makes me cry though...
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do
*sighs sadly but smiles a bit* I'll still love you Angel no matter how much time passes nor what happens between us. For once you love someone you really never stop and you find that deep down you always love them even if you are not still in love with them.
For now I'm working through being without the comfort of her love so pray for me. I know I'll make it through this mainly thanks to the strength of my friendships, hers included yet I can always use the help.
So thats the good news and the bad.
Be well all my friends.
Yeah this isn't going to be a good post.
For anyone that actually kept up with my LJ guess what?
I'm doing an entry!!! I know it has been a very long time but my life has been so busy that I haven't had time to post here....now I have the time but I've been avoiding it. I'll get to that later.
Okay good news first.
I finished my last semester at MTSU with straight A's. YAY! AND I got accepted into Vanderbilt Medical for my one year of Radiation Therapy training. After that I'll be done with formal schooling and shall be a certified Radiation Therapist and I so look forward to that.
Now bad news...
Angel and I are no longer together. *lets that sink in*
Yeah her and I parted ways romanticly but not in our friendship. Though we are no longer as close as we were before I still feel her arms around me when I need her and I hope she feels the same for they are always open for her. *chuckles* I'm still the hopeful romantic.
*sighs and listens to the song* This song these days makes me cry though...
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do
*sighs sadly but smiles a bit* I'll still love you Angel no matter how much time passes nor what happens between us. For once you love someone you really never stop and you find that deep down you always love them even if you are not still in love with them.
For now I'm working through being without the comfort of her love so pray for me. I know I'll make it through this mainly thanks to the strength of my friendships, hers included yet I can always use the help.
So thats the good news and the bad.
Be well all my friends.