She's only sinking because these bulkheads stop a deck too low
Aviva and I are miserable and it's all my fault. Maybe not, I don't know. She's going away to some foreign country for a month and now I'm starting to think that I can't deal with that. And I'm so jealous of her and everything he does. Oh, I'm also a big male chauvunist and her having any life whatsoever annoys me because I'm a fucking asshole. Oh and I said that I loved her which was a BIG MISTAKE because I don't in that way, I just wish I did. Maybe I should break up with her, but I'm just too afraid to do it. I'm afraid of not having someone and am afraid I won't find anyone else.