crazy thinking
so jordan really got me to think today. . .maybe i am deep down a mean person that trys hard everyday to be nice but deep down i'm mean and can't help it. i have been told several times that i show no emotion. . .happy or sad that seem really that i am robot like ( i mean even Justus told me this back in the day and called me a robot) then thinking on this it got me to think if people are born mean and born nice and then just are and if they are mean they try to be nice but are still mean. . .i don't even think i am making sense but really it is odd. i do nice things for people for no reason yet is it because i am trying to be a good person. . .or because i am a good person? and do i really not show any emotion cause i can look at myself and see. . .i mean i know that i'm not smiling all the time (several people at phcc havetold me this as walk down halls or as i am reading a text book) but i'm not frowning. . .i do cry, and i do get happy so why do so many say i am emotionless?