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i do not want to leave.
this is so depressing.
i don't know what i was expecting for today.
but it kinda sucked.
i'm just sooo hung up on the past.
and i don't even know why i still care.
cuz i know it's not mutual.
i shed tears for about 2 minutes before i realized.
things are never ever gonna be the same.
and that makes me feel..not good.
i don't know exactly what i'm feeling.
but it's almost a given that i'm not gonna be the same person when i come home.
i don't want new friends.
i'm content with the few i have.
though most of them treat me oddly.
i'm sorry.
really.
i am.
cuz i know i'm a bitch.
and i get jealous easily.
and i'm way overprotective and selfish.
and i wish i could just tell everyone how i felt about them.
and how sad i am that i care more than everyone else.
eveything just sucks a lot.
and i don't know what to do with myself.
and my damn car broke again today.
this is so depressing.
i don't know what i was expecting for today.
but it kinda sucked.
i'm just sooo hung up on the past.
and i don't even know why i still care.
cuz i know it's not mutual.
i shed tears for about 2 minutes before i realized.
things are never ever gonna be the same.
and that makes me feel..not good.
i don't know exactly what i'm feeling.
but it's almost a given that i'm not gonna be the same person when i come home.
i don't want new friends.
i'm content with the few i have.
though most of them treat me oddly.
i'm sorry.
really.
i am.
cuz i know i'm a bitch.
and i get jealous easily.
and i'm way overprotective and selfish.
and i wish i could just tell everyone how i felt about them.
and how sad i am that i care more than everyone else.
eveything just sucks a lot.
and i don't know what to do with myself.
and my damn car broke again today.