Why me?
I know that sounds selfish but why me? Everything in my life has fallen apart. Ryan Left me for Shelli, My rents spilt up, I hate my life, Im so alone, Noones understands or cares enough to get into my head and try to feel the pain im feeling, I cry myself to sleep every night, I miss Ryan terribly but i cant seem to tell him that. My mother isnt even in the house anymore and she still feels like she can controll my life and every FUCKING THING I DO!!!! GRRRR
Ok my rents can have probs and yes im dealing with my mom not being here anymore but i figured id get some more freedom but NOOOOOOOOOOO FUCK YOU MOTHER! Let me live my life and you live yours!!!!!!
School sucks ass i really dont like very many ppl down there im prolly failing all of my classes AND I DONT CARE ANYMORE....
I miss Ryan so much and I can't get him out of my head. I close my eyes I see him there with the cute ass smile of his. I open my eyes and i still see him there in front of me...I love him and he doesnt see it. I know he wants some time right now and I'm willing to give me all the time he needs, I always have. Even thou he has broken up with me a number of times my love for him will always be as strong as it was in the begining when spending time together was fun...I was the happiest when I was with him and ever since life has been almost impossible. I know a million people tell me that he cant be worth all the pain and torture im putting myself throu but hes worth that and than some. April Clarq understands this and I want to thank her for listening to me for a couple of minutes today.
Well this helped me vent a tid bit....
I'm sorry Ryan I don't mean to ruin your life Like ive ruined my own...*hugs and kisses*
April Lynn
Ok my rents can have probs and yes im dealing with my mom not being here anymore but i figured id get some more freedom but NOOOOOOOOOOO FUCK YOU MOTHER! Let me live my life and you live yours!!!!!!
School sucks ass i really dont like very many ppl down there im prolly failing all of my classes AND I DONT CARE ANYMORE....
I miss Ryan so much and I can't get him out of my head. I close my eyes I see him there with the cute ass smile of his. I open my eyes and i still see him there in front of me...I love him and he doesnt see it. I know he wants some time right now and I'm willing to give me all the time he needs, I always have. Even thou he has broken up with me a number of times my love for him will always be as strong as it was in the begining when spending time together was fun...I was the happiest when I was with him and ever since life has been almost impossible. I know a million people tell me that he cant be worth all the pain and torture im putting myself throu but hes worth that and than some. April Clarq understands this and I want to thank her for listening to me for a couple of minutes today.
Well this helped me vent a tid bit....
I'm sorry Ryan I don't mean to ruin your life Like ive ruined my own...*hugs and kisses*
April Lynn