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im tired of crying.
im tired of fucking wasting my tears on something that isnt even worth it.
im tired of putting so much effort into something and getting nothing in return.
im tired of wanting someone so bad and them lying to me about their feelings.
im fed up with trying to prove to him that my love is real.
it doesnt matter.
he didnt matter.
but in reality he was all i wanted.
in reality he was the asshole i was searching for.
but hes not an asshole he is pure, and different from the rest.
So maybe i was wrong and hes just like the rest a dick of a boy.
such a coldhearted boy, such boy could destroy my heart in a wink of an eye, a gasp of air, its blown up and shattered into more than a thousand pieces.
i was a fool to believe this time was different.
i was a fool to believe he actually wanted to be with me.
so im the fool. a fucking fool. i would give up my life for him and i tried to.
i tried changing myself for him little by little day by day. and eventhen it wasnt enough.
so i dont have a backbone you say? im as weak as your mom.
but i knew it wouldnt last. or did i. no i knew it would last.
and its scary to think that i believed every lie he said to me.
i believed he was the one and i still do.
im such a believer in all the doubts he fed me.
and now i drown in my own sympathy, i drown in my self doubt.
i drown in all i was supposeed to be and let myself down.
this is the lie that i chose to live,
and in many ways im pretty sure i got it from him.
i cant say i'll move on because i never thought of such thing
i guess ill just wait here ;porque nada valgo sin tu amor.
im tired of fucking wasting my tears on something that isnt even worth it.
im tired of putting so much effort into something and getting nothing in return.
im tired of wanting someone so bad and them lying to me about their feelings.
im fed up with trying to prove to him that my love is real.
it doesnt matter.
he didnt matter.
but in reality he was all i wanted.
in reality he was the asshole i was searching for.
but hes not an asshole he is pure, and different from the rest.
So maybe i was wrong and hes just like the rest a dick of a boy.
such a coldhearted boy, such boy could destroy my heart in a wink of an eye, a gasp of air, its blown up and shattered into more than a thousand pieces.
i was a fool to believe this time was different.
i was a fool to believe he actually wanted to be with me.
so im the fool. a fucking fool. i would give up my life for him and i tried to.
i tried changing myself for him little by little day by day. and eventhen it wasnt enough.
so i dont have a backbone you say? im as weak as your mom.
but i knew it wouldnt last. or did i. no i knew it would last.
and its scary to think that i believed every lie he said to me.
i believed he was the one and i still do.
im such a believer in all the doubts he fed me.
and now i drown in my own sympathy, i drown in my self doubt.
i drown in all i was supposeed to be and let myself down.
this is the lie that i chose to live,
and in many ways im pretty sure i got it from him.
i cant say i'll move on because i never thought of such thing
i guess ill just wait here ;porque nada valgo sin tu amor.