i feel so full of drugs but so empty at heart....

[justdrugsandsex]

pretending nothing is in my way of life is my number one struggle. my first priority is trying to keep myself alive. i cant even feel pain anymore in my mind. im just so used to functioning well on with it, physically and emotionally.i hate it when people feel bad for me and are all like "oh marty...im so sorry...blah blah blah" and i know they dont mean it, but it pisses me off even more. the last thing i need is pity. and the last thing i need is someone thinking i want some fucking attention.

TO DO LIST:
1)stop doing drugs
2)stop trusting
3)try to stay alive
4)never love anyone
5)stop caring so much
6)be more active
7)keep shit to myself...motherfucker!!!!