Already gone
So I told him that I didn't want to be with him. He came to talk but I didn't go out because I knew that if I did he would have convinced me of getting back together and probably would have said yes because I'm that easy to manipulate. I know that I don't love him I've always known. I mean I do have feelings for him but I just don't see myself and him being togetehr forever. I'm deeply sorry and mad because I'm hurting someone that loves me deeply. Why can't I fall in love with him?!!?!? What does it always have to happen to me.!! I'm tired of these. I am the problem. I need to get my shit together. I don't want to keep going through this.