Chris at Valchris
I SWEAR! If he doesnt stop calling... GRRRRR hes gotta call right in the middle of my convos about a certain chris. seriously. im pissed off. STOP CALLING!
Its odd... usually im online all day long at work. but somehow today i finally logged onto AIM for the first time about 20 minutes ago. somehow todays been stressful and blah! started with waking back up at 15 til 8 this morning in panic mode. work sucks. ha!
Saw my whoaman Wednesday night. got a parking ticket the next morning because i forgot about street sweeping starting at 7am.. so 715am i go to walk out to my car and see the ticket! GR! i feel like an idiot... there goes $40. I dont know what to make of everything with him. i try not to think about it... i think thats the best approach. im hung up on him yes. i still love him yes. he is just not in a place right now i believe..... he doesnt think hes good enough and he knows he keeps messing up and tells me im crazy for sticking around and going to see him and what not. but that hes very thankful for it and appreciates it and blah. i wish i could tell him how i feel about him. i cant he looks at me and asks me what im thinking and wants a real answer... i cant answer. its right on the tip of my tongue.. but the words "i love you" cant seem to come out. :( I have a fear of it maybe? i always have...
blah blah blah. this weekend is finally hear... 2 more fridays then VEGAS! YAY!!! i have to go buy cheap liquor to make jello shots for petras kickback tomorrow night.. cheap liquor.. i totally feel like im back in hs. ha! being short for cash sucks... i get paid monday... i cant wait.
Its odd... usually im online all day long at work. but somehow today i finally logged onto AIM for the first time about 20 minutes ago. somehow todays been stressful and blah! started with waking back up at 15 til 8 this morning in panic mode. work sucks. ha!
Saw my whoaman Wednesday night. got a parking ticket the next morning because i forgot about street sweeping starting at 7am.. so 715am i go to walk out to my car and see the ticket! GR! i feel like an idiot... there goes $40. I dont know what to make of everything with him. i try not to think about it... i think thats the best approach. im hung up on him yes. i still love him yes. he is just not in a place right now i believe..... he doesnt think hes good enough and he knows he keeps messing up and tells me im crazy for sticking around and going to see him and what not. but that hes very thankful for it and appreciates it and blah. i wish i could tell him how i feel about him. i cant he looks at me and asks me what im thinking and wants a real answer... i cant answer. its right on the tip of my tongue.. but the words "i love you" cant seem to come out. :( I have a fear of it maybe? i always have...
blah blah blah. this weekend is finally hear... 2 more fridays then VEGAS! YAY!!! i have to go buy cheap liquor to make jello shots for petras kickback tomorrow night.. cheap liquor.. i totally feel like im back in hs. ha! being short for cash sucks... i get paid monday... i cant wait.