whats been on my mind

[justchillman]

well ive been thinking about love alot, now dont get happy this is far from happy this will be a good olde fashioned rant and rave. ive been gettin pissed on the fact that people go your awesome your blah blah blah why what makes me this way no dice dude no... it just doesnt add up. ill meet someone things can seem strong but then boom we're just good friends how how the fuck does this happen every fucking time. idk dudes. the shits just been piling up and up and ive been fucking gettin more and more fucking pissed off. idk dude if your me you equal a friend. im goin to be the single dude at everyone elses wedding drinking in the back wishing things were different and then im goin to think about how i fucked up all my relationships but then i goin to get pissed bc im goin to realize that everyone that i almost had a relationship with im good friends with. EXPLAIN?!?!?!?! i need a fucking answer. i dont want to be like that i dont want to be like this. thinkin about i probably bring all this on myself. whatever dudes its just annoying now. whatever if im goin to have a relaionship i guess itll happen but im just not goin to fuckin try anymore i fucking cant take it anymore. i guess i can live without love im sure.

whatever its just gettin to me, i mean dude think about it all i ever get is a bunch of fucking teases, how can i live like that and not get pissed?

whatever im tired of talkin about it