bleh
so im writing cuz im sittin here at 11:30 at night bored. i should just go to bed but i wont. got alot on my mind. got a new computer here, and got the sims 2 to play. yes im a game nerd! but dawn loves it thats all that matters. i was lookin at clothes online the other day, sometimes it sucks so much to be poor. i mean i know i wont always be but its just so hard. i just want to fast forward my life and get to where i want to be. i mean im happy. i love dawn and for the first time in ages im pretty sure its real with her this time. im ready to have my life and be settled. i know that now more then ever. its a little scary even but i guess thats just how life is. it wouldnt be life if it wasnt a little scary right? i dunno maybe i just dont make sense. im heading up to canada to see my babe here soon. i cant wait, shes takin me to an incubus concert on my birthday the 1st of nov! im such a lucky guy. shes perfect. i only hope she feels the same about me and always does. god knows how much i love her and dont want to disapoint her and how much i just want to be there and be everything she needs and be there for her. sorry im being rather sappy. guess its just my mood. anyways i have babbled about it enuff lol. all i know is, she makes me wanna be a better, shes made me the better person i am today. and i do pray in my heart every night that it will always be this way. and i wish everyone else could find the love that i have found with her. its a miracle honestly. ok good night