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soo alright.
i was at chris's tonight and we were
talking about my moral values and my
parents and stuff and like... he made
a really good point that makes a lot
of sense and is totally accurate and
i guess i in a way thought of it before
but not really.. but he was saying how
because of my parents and being molested
at such a young age and everything like
that that has happened to me sex in
general is dumb to me. i see the really
bad parts about it and how it tears
people apart and i see that bad stuff
that happens because it is such a, in
my mind, shallow thing that doesn't
have much meaning. now.. the reason i
see it as not having much meanining
(and this is watching other people but
it might get confusing) it because
people are immature about it and abuse
it a lot. i see that happening and don't
always see sex as being a good thing.
and like.. i'm not saying that sex or
sexual things are necessarily bad, but
they are when you're doing bad things
with them. what i mean by that is people
cheating on eachother or people disregaurding
morality and just doing whatever cuz it
feels good. like... i dunno... i think
that it's stupid just to do something
cuz you want to. i mean... if i like
killing people, does that mean i should
do it? is it still wrong? so err i kinda
got off kinda... basically what i'm saying
is that i see the misuse of sex and sexual
things in my own life and in society so
much that to me other people just use it
almost as a joke. it's sickening. like..
honestly... save yourself till fucking
marriage, or have a longer relationship
with someone before you start doing more
serious stuff with them. also... i don't
really see the point in doing that (in
a short term) because it is just.. whatever.
it's dumb. there should be more that is
keeping you together and just because
you want or enjoy doing something doesn't
necessarily mean you should. i wish i could
explain myself better and dammit im going
to find out how to hopefully but yeah.
ajlhdbadsbkhab
i was at chris's tonight and we were
talking about my moral values and my
parents and stuff and like... he made
a really good point that makes a lot
of sense and is totally accurate and
i guess i in a way thought of it before
but not really.. but he was saying how
because of my parents and being molested
at such a young age and everything like
that that has happened to me sex in
general is dumb to me. i see the really
bad parts about it and how it tears
people apart and i see that bad stuff
that happens because it is such a, in
my mind, shallow thing that doesn't
have much meaning. now.. the reason i
see it as not having much meanining
(and this is watching other people but
it might get confusing) it because
people are immature about it and abuse
it a lot. i see that happening and don't
always see sex as being a good thing.
and like.. i'm not saying that sex or
sexual things are necessarily bad, but
they are when you're doing bad things
with them. what i mean by that is people
cheating on eachother or people disregaurding
morality and just doing whatever cuz it
feels good. like... i dunno... i think
that it's stupid just to do something
cuz you want to. i mean... if i like
killing people, does that mean i should
do it? is it still wrong? so err i kinda
got off kinda... basically what i'm saying
is that i see the misuse of sex and sexual
things in my own life and in society so
much that to me other people just use it
almost as a joke. it's sickening. like..
honestly... save yourself till fucking
marriage, or have a longer relationship
with someone before you start doing more
serious stuff with them. also... i don't
really see the point in doing that (in
a short term) because it is just.. whatever.
it's dumb. there should be more that is
keeping you together and just because
you want or enjoy doing something doesn't
necessarily mean you should. i wish i could
explain myself better and dammit im going
to find out how to hopefully but yeah.
ajlhdbadsbkhab