My Lie Journal
the statements recorded in this journal...almost a year ago...and every entry before then....are complete BULLSHIT. That person was not Caitlin. It was Caitlin ruled by a materialistic world, a non Christlike lifestyle, and a possessive boyfriend. All of which have been ammended. I would advise you not to go back and read the old entries,,,,but if you must....knock yourself out, just know it wasn't the real me. People change...so kiss my ass if you don't feel like letting me change. Poor you will never know the real me...and how sad for you.
Sometimes the worst thing that happens to you, turns out to be the best thing.
Losing him, and having God take away my vanity, my pride, and my idols...has made me into a new person. The person God has always wanted me to be. Embracing the things about me I used to hide. Recognizing that God made me with unique qualities to better serve Him. Granted I will never be perfect, nor will anyone. I have four best friends, and an imperfect family that loves me. With so many people that love me in my life, how could I ever be unhappy? My life here is so temporal, so fleeting, why give it a moments' worry? I no longer let others' perceptions cloud my spiritual confidence. I can think/speak clearly....(sometimes evasively...but I'm working on that) about my beliefs. My first and formost belief to exemplify is love. To show every person I know, in every type of relationship, the forgiving and accepting love that God shows me. Secondly come my personal beliefs. I do not share them freely, or impose them on anyone, but if you ask I'll be happy to tell you that I do not believe in premarital sex. People have the most trouble with that one. I lost a seemingly meaningful relationship over my commitment to God, and if I have to keep losing relationships over it, I will. Abstinence is a deal-breaker for most guys, and that's fine by me, because I'm not looking for most guys. So basically all this to say, if you have some sort of problem with me, kiss my ass.
Sometimes the worst thing that happens to you, turns out to be the best thing.
Losing him, and having God take away my vanity, my pride, and my idols...has made me into a new person. The person God has always wanted me to be. Embracing the things about me I used to hide. Recognizing that God made me with unique qualities to better serve Him. Granted I will never be perfect, nor will anyone. I have four best friends, and an imperfect family that loves me. With so many people that love me in my life, how could I ever be unhappy? My life here is so temporal, so fleeting, why give it a moments' worry? I no longer let others' perceptions cloud my spiritual confidence. I can think/speak clearly....(sometimes evasively...but I'm working on that) about my beliefs. My first and formost belief to exemplify is love. To show every person I know, in every type of relationship, the forgiving and accepting love that God shows me. Secondly come my personal beliefs. I do not share them freely, or impose them on anyone, but if you ask I'll be happy to tell you that I do not believe in premarital sex. People have the most trouble with that one. I lost a seemingly meaningful relationship over my commitment to God, and if I have to keep losing relationships over it, I will. Abstinence is a deal-breaker for most guys, and that's fine by me, because I'm not looking for most guys. So basically all this to say, if you have some sort of problem with me, kiss my ass.