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i've been going through a lot lately...all i know for sure is that something's wrong but the doctors won't tell me what it is and neither will my parents...it sucks not knowing, but i guess they just don't want to ruin our trip.
i leave for ireland tomarrow night at 5 pm and come back monday night to go to the doctor again tuesday. i'm pretty excited for the trip. it's our last trip as a family before my brother gets married, ireland has no idea what's about to hit them...gear up.
i miss my alipants and krys...
i miss sean, his smile, his laugh....
i went to memorial park today where he's buried. i'm glad i'm not going to be here on memorial day, the day on which you remember all of those who have fought for our country...it'd just be too hard. i still can't think about it without crying, and then i get angry because i feel as though it shouldn't be affecting me so much. why is this so hard?
i'm just so tired
wont you sing me to sleep
and fly through my dreams
so i can hitch a ride with you tonight
and get away from this place
have a new name and face
i just aint the same without you in my life
late night drives, all alone in my car
i can't help but start
singing lines from all our favorite songs
and melodies in the air
singin life just aint fair
sometimes i still just can't believe you're gone
and im sure the view from heaven
beats the hell out of mine here
and if we all believe in heaven,
maybe we'll make it through one more year down here
feel your fire,
when its cold in my heart
and things sorta start
remindin' me of my last night with you
i only need one more day
just one more chance to say
i wish that i had gone up with you too
you wont be comin' back
and i didn't get to say goodbye
i really wish i got to say goodbye
i hope that all is well in heaven
cause it's all shot to hell down here
i hope that i find you in heaven
cause i'm so...
lost without you down here
you wont be coming back
and i didn't get to say goodbye
i really wish i got to say goodbye...
i leave for ireland tomarrow night at 5 pm and come back monday night to go to the doctor again tuesday. i'm pretty excited for the trip. it's our last trip as a family before my brother gets married, ireland has no idea what's about to hit them...gear up.
i miss my alipants and krys...
i miss sean, his smile, his laugh....
i went to memorial park today where he's buried. i'm glad i'm not going to be here on memorial day, the day on which you remember all of those who have fought for our country...it'd just be too hard. i still can't think about it without crying, and then i get angry because i feel as though it shouldn't be affecting me so much. why is this so hard?
i'm just so tired
wont you sing me to sleep
and fly through my dreams
so i can hitch a ride with you tonight
and get away from this place
have a new name and face
i just aint the same without you in my life
late night drives, all alone in my car
i can't help but start
singing lines from all our favorite songs
and melodies in the air
singin life just aint fair
sometimes i still just can't believe you're gone
and im sure the view from heaven
beats the hell out of mine here
and if we all believe in heaven,
maybe we'll make it through one more year down here
feel your fire,
when its cold in my heart
and things sorta start
remindin' me of my last night with you
i only need one more day
just one more chance to say
i wish that i had gone up with you too
you wont be comin' back
and i didn't get to say goodbye
i really wish i got to say goodbye
i hope that all is well in heaven
cause it's all shot to hell down here
i hope that i find you in heaven
cause i'm so...
lost without you down here
you wont be coming back
and i didn't get to say goodbye
i really wish i got to say goodbye...